little miss chatterbox

Seventeen Forever

2010-03-20T12:27:00.005+08:00

Hello :) So I don't want to ramble on a lot of things but yesterday I got a text from Yaya and she asked me to come to Secret Recipe Perling Mall to celebrate Sarah's birthday so I did go there and I had fun. It was cool.. I saw that Sarah looked good and happy so yeah that's everything I would've asked for :) Anyway, um I (my mom and I) bought her cupcakes! Oh well it's the thought of your birthday that matters kan Sarah?

If you guys wanna see more photos go to this link FACEBOOK ALBUM

PS: Sarah, sorry tak call :( phone aku tade credit doh nak call rumah ni :l haha

PSS: Yo sexy ladies and dudes! Mark yo calendar on 8th May 2010. Okay sweetie pies?

Truly inspiring

2010-03-18T16:07:00.001+08:00

“The important thing is not to be bitter over
life’s disappointments
Learn to let go of the past,
and recognize that every day won’t be sunny.

And when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair,
remember, it’s only in the black of night you see the stars.
And those stars will lead you back home.

So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, or stumble and fall,
‘cause most of the time the greatest rewards
come from doing the things that scare you the most.

Maybe you’ll get everything you wish for.

Maybe you’ll get more than you ever could have imagined.

Who knows where life will take you.

The road is long and in the end,
the journey is the destination.”

—	Coach Whitey Durham, One Tree Hill.

Lost and Insecure

2010-03-15T23:19:00.007+08:00

What is up people? Hope it's all fine in the hood cause if it's not then come talk to me baby, I ain't gonna bite ho.
Okay try imagine me, talking to you like that with the black woman accent/attitude. FAIL
I know I haven't put a single post on my blog since um I don't know forever but why should I care right? Probably because I know no one will open a new tab and type out my link just to read my crap but if there's someone out there who reads my blog and wondering why the hell I didn't update, it's very sweet of you considering I suck at this so thank you :) I'm just busy with life you know I have tons of things at school and at night I would've extra tuition and weekends I would go online but sometimes I'm too lazy then I didn't even check my Facebook. If I have time for this then my brain could not function very well (like always) so I would never write something useless or pathetic. Don't I write pathetic shit always? Sorry I'm rambling again. If you don't understand a bit, just keep on reading and don't bother my intro :)

Seriously dude I took a good 15 minutes to think of something for the sake of update :l

INSECURITIES

Have you ever had this kind of feeling? Where you just feel like a worthless piece of shit? If you do then I'd say "Welcome to the club!" As a matter of fact every day I find out new things to hate about myself. You know like "Ew I don't like my legs, they're too short" or "God I'm too dark" or "Ugh my hair is not pretty" or "I'm too fat, I wish I could be skinnier" or "That's it I'm such an idiot".. Yeah that's pretty much the words I kept 'listening' in my head over and over again. Every day there must be something new that I don't like about myself and I hate those kind of feelings. It sounds ridiculous and I wanted it to stop but it's just something that cannot be stop. I'm sure everyone feels insecure about themselves and it's usually something that you NEVER would have thought of if they hadn't told you. I guess it's what makes the world a real place to live in. If you come forward to me and tell me that you have never felt insecure in your entire life then I'd say "I'm sorry for you".I think the only way for me and maybe for you to move pass it is too stop over-thinking about it. Stay away from it and focus more on the good stuff I guess. You know instead of saying say "Oh, I hate hate, my ugly hair. Say "Ish at least I have hair and they ain't balding". You know say something good about yourself, something that you find very pretty about you that has no flaws and all. I did that and it's kind of working :)
One thing is for sure, nothing good can come out of bashing yourself on things you can't change about yourself. That's what God gave you, you just have to accept it, deal with it. Just learn to live with them, and embrace them, even though it's difficult.

NOT GOOD ENOUGH

I asked this one girl on FORMSPRING (she's from Canada btw) about feeling not good enough about yourself. Because I honestly feel like I'm not good enough, like not smart enough, not pretty enough, not good enough to have all the things that I have right now. Yeah those kind of things bother me a lot and there are a lot of people did not know about this because I never tell anyone. I may show you my strong, brave and confident side but my inner side not so much. I have a lot of insecurities and feeling not good enough, like I don't belong. I mean my family and friends treat me well but the feeling is just there, you know. Blah I go emotional now :l Anyways, the girl replied my question and her thoughts were inspiring? Maybe? She said to me, "As for not feeling good enough, the only response I have for that is... "I AM good enough. And fuck anyone who wants to disagree." When it comes to certain things, you have to be self centered. Don't be afraid to say that you're awesome." -----------She is awesome!

There you go, you just read my thoughts. So if anyone reading this right now, if you ever feel insecure or not good enough, don't worry you're not alone. Lemme just say this Everyone is good enough!

PS: No sport's day entry okay, very lazy leh to upload pictures :l

PSS: Think about this before you go to sleep :)

Money, I'm your biggest fan

2010-02-26T23:28:00.007+08:00

What's up pretty ladies...and dudes? I know, I know I haven't post a single thing since forever because it's been crazy busy with school and extra classes and some other shit loads in life so yeah basically I have no time to sit in front of my PC typing some crap just to update my blog. I guess you're just lucky this time :)

I have tons of things that's happening to me now and I don't think I can put up with a single post so I'm just gonna summarize everything into one. Whatever, I mean like you even care about my life :l and by summarize I mean photos only okay? My brain's are not functioning very well right now and I feel like a dumb blond so I cannot make up sentences in a correct way so just.. yeah pictures. BTW these photos would be the time we had the one week break of school holiday for Chinese New Year.

The pictures above are the pictures from Monaco :) You're a total fool if you believe that! Danga Bay je doh ;)

On Chinese New Year, I went to 313@Somerset Singapore with my lovely aunt and I went shopping! My aunt just took photos :) I FREAKING LOVE THE FOREVER 21 STORE THERE! Damn they have 4 stories of F21! I swear if I brought so much cash on that day I would finish them all up at split seconds. Luckily I was not, so I just bought a checkered shirt, some bangles and rings which moi love and a Billabong hand bang which moi love too and super pretty and classy ;) I am definitely going back to Somerset and Vivo City again and shop like crazy. I saw this leather jacket at Uniqlo for just 99$ and a high-cut Nike sneakers for like 149$ and I am so going to buy 'em when I go there :) I just hope it'll be there. yeeeehooww money please come to me dear, I need you now and forever. Please don't stop coming to mommy <3>

Okay I'm done with this. Enjoy your weekends and life :) Sport's Day coming up and it will be interesting :)

PS: I look huge and funny :l Ugh shut up I'm working on a diet. NOT

PSS: Happy 17th Birthday to my girl, Nor Seha Shukor :) I love and miss you!

PSSS: Ya Allah, please make me grow taller :) thank you

It's not easy to be me

2010-01-31T16:26:00.002+08:00

Hey :) Wow it has been a long time since I updated my blog. I don't know if I have to feel sorry or not because I know that no one will read my latest entry. How sad :( But anyway I'm not gonna whine and all because I have reasons for not updating and stuff.

I have been so busy this year. My schedule is pact with extra tuition classes and I finished school at 2.30 pm. It's freaking crazy and it's damn tiring if you ask me. After the Sport's Day, it will get more interesting because we will be going home at 4.30 pm. Can't this be anymore annoying? I've survived the first month of school and I am totally worn out and I just can't imagine how I would be like after March.

First exam is coming real soon on March or February I'm not so sure but there's a lot of Form 4 syllabus that I need to catch up real fast and I'm not sure if I can. By this time I need some luck and miracle. Seriously, luck needs to be on my side or else I don't know what the hell I'm going to do.

There are a lot of things that I want to tell and share but I'm running out of time. I barely have time for myself so there's no way I would have more time to update on here. If anything just facebook me :)

This year I have to focus and be more serious cause I REALLY REALLY wanna do good on my SPM cause I have been thinking a lot lately that if I didn't do good then I have wasted my five years for nothing and I'm thinking of taking law after SPM. Big dream, I know but one can dream right? Hence, I have to be real good man.

So I may be update once or twice a month. Not that anyone cared or anything but yeah just so you know.

PS: Listen to the song above to go with my mood :)

PSS: February's coming already? Time does fly so fast..

I want to break our madness

2010-01-03T17:28:00.002+08:00

Anyone out there who's reading this and is not ready to go to school physically or mentally or emotionally please raise up your hand! *I'm raising up my hand now*. Why oh why the holiday ends so fast?! I'm not ready or thrilled to start school session. I don't feel anything which is bizarre for me cause I used to be so excited to go back to school. The only thing that I'm looking forward to is meeting my friends. The books, the teachers, the environment, the homework and shit like that.. Nu-uh I'm totally not into any of it. SPM is slightly the problem why I'm not in the mood for school but I'm not going to rant about it cause I don't even want to think about it. The other huge part why am I not eager to go to school because I'll be tired, my mood always pisses me off whenever I go to school, the homework, the yelling and annoying teachers will bug the hell out of me! I'm sure of it. Praise to God that this will be my last year at high school and personally I don't think that I can take another year of it so this year is a bonus.

You guys probably wonder why I don't want to talk about SPM (if you don't then just start wondering) right? Here are the reasons. Whenever I thought about it I'll be damn scared so I'd rather shut my mouth up than kept shaking my hand. Then, if I start to think about it constantly, I cannot stop it and then I will blame myself for not doing revision on Form 4 topics while I had time during the school break. Then it will go like "What if...", "What could've been..", What would've happen..", "I'm screwed if..". You know what I mean? I don't want to get those kind of feelings or questions on my head cause it's sickening so that's why I don't want to talk or think about my huge exam cause seriously it gets the best of me or even better it will be the death of me. I may sound dramatic but it's the truth.

I'm not ready for anything this year. I know what I want but I'm afraid that I can't have what I want and that scares me. Of course I'll try my very best this year but still..I have a lot of things to catch up on and God I hope I have time for everything. The catching up part I mean. Blah! I'm going to stop now cause I'm starting to think about the freaking exam and the school which starts tomorrow. I'll throw up any second if I ever think about it again. Bring out the revolver and shoot me now straight to my chest or my head. You choose!

PS: Welcome back to school kids! I hope we'll kick this year's ass!

PSS: To Form 5 students, let's get mad and go crazy! ugh

Fate of Pandora

2010-01-02T22:11:00.008+08:00

You're like living under the rock if you've never heard of the movie 'AVATAR'. I'm not even joking. I have to admit that when the first time I saw the teaser trailer was back when I saw New Moon, I thought "Ew this movie's gonna suck big time" because they have totally hideous creature and I don't know, it'll be like so weird to watch it cause it will never make sense. So I thought I will never watch this movie because I'm really not into this kind of stuff but today my aunt convinced me to watch it cause she had seen it and she said it's worth it. I'm like "What the hell? One movie will not hurt me and this will kill my time" I did go then with my aunt and cousin. Let me warn you something, if you wanna watch it then please do not drink loads of water or soda before you go in because if you do then you'll probably wanna go pee and it will suck to miss one second away from the movie. Trust me cause everything on it is important and needs concentration.

I'm not going to give you guys away with full preview on this one cause you have to watch it on your own but I must say that even if this movie takes 2 hours and 43 minutes before it ends, I promise you that you will not feel bored and you will not have time to seek your watch or your phone to see what time is it because it goes so well and definitely not slow. You will enjoy it, you'll see. It's quite hard to describe how incredible this movie was so you have to book the ticket now and enjoy it. I heard that they took a long time to make up this movie but the time that they took definitely worth the wait. I'm not anticipated to watch it before but after I saw this for the first time, I was so thrilled! They have everything in this movie, love, humanity, nature, kindness, sacrifices, everything. Gah I gotta stop ranting!

Okay before I go, I'm gonna say the dude that play 'Jake Sully' aka the main character is hot. Fuhh even though he sits on wheel chair, damn that guy has a rockin' body! haha Oh and the Na'vi people or the Avatar are practically naked with blue bodies but don't worry it will not turn you on cause I don't. LMAO
For those of you who saw this movie and thought that it sucked then you're one hell of a blind person or maybe you have a bad taste or maybe you're both. By the way don't buy the DVD if you wanna watch it for the first time cause you won't get the real picture or sound unless if you have a home theater at your house but if you don't then I recommend that you should see it with big screen so it'll be more surreal. You know what I mean? Ugh I'm going to shut my mouth now!

PS: It's not too late to wish everyone of you a very Happy New Year! Have a great year to me and to you <3>

No apologies, no regrets

2009-12-29T16:36:00.006+08:00

"Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend. Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways."

I will try my best to never be regret of anything whether it's my choice or not. Life's short and I'm gonna live my life at the moment. I'm sick of regretting stuff and I'm not gonna blame myself nor anyone after this. I know it'll be hard but who says everything in this world would be easy right? I don't want to live a life out of guilt, I'm so over it. It takes me long, hard time to figure this shit out. I know that this entry probably meant nothing to you but for me it does meant something. Do you ever had a feeling that you regret something so bad until at one point you just wanna to turn back time and make things better? If you do then I'd say "Welcome to the club!" but..

Newsflash! It's never gonna happen honey so that's why you have to move on, deal with it, learn from it, never repeat it and make no apologies. I also know that I may not be the right person to tell you to live with no regrets but if you think back, look past all of it, read the quote above and ask yourself, then you'll understand why I put this on my entry.

I would choose to live my life with No Regrets. This I vow today and hopefully forever :)

PS: 'G.I Joe' is one hell of a movie! It's a kick ass man!

Half of my heart

2009-12-25T15:46:00.006+08:00

Oh half of my heart has a grip on the situation

Half of my heart takes time

Half of my heart has a right mind to tell you that

I can't keep loving you(can't keep loving you)

Oh with half of my heart

I downloaded this song for a quite a long time but recently this song, 'Half of my heart' just keep on repeating in my head. It's like stuck in my brain I kept singing this song and I don't know why. As far as I'm concern there's nothing in my life that's related to this song. Not at the moment. Hm but I guess I just love John Mayer's sexy voice ;) Poor Taylor Swift though, she only get a chance to sing like two lines just for back up vocals. Anyway, this song, the lyrics and melodies are beautiful. Me likey ;) Boy I would be lucky to have a guy sings to me with Mayer's voice!

I have no idea what to update or whatnot so I just started typing about this without even thinking so there you go! Search for this song on Youtube or whatever and listen to it. You will not be dissappointed. I promise :)

PS: Merry Christmas for those who're celeberating!

PSS: I'll try to update more about important stuff and less about my favourite song or whatever. It's just that there's nothing important or interesting about my life right now. Shoot me with with a revolver!

Pictures of you, pictures of me

2009-12-23T16:10:00.005+08:00

Hello lovely people who have time to read up my rant :) Howdy doody? I hope y'all are doing fine! Anyways, I'm gonna put some pictures from yesterday's picnic which was also Beyla's birthday on this entry so there will be no crappy things on here that will bore you. I promise :) rightt
Let the photos do the talking or explanation or whatever..

The birthday cake. "A+B=C" stands so Azizi + Beyla = Cinta :)

We're happy to see them happy <3

Happy 16th Birthday girlie :)

They're practically weird but fun to watch! lol

Amanina and MJ <3>

Yana and her boyfie that came all the way from Melaka. Suhweeeeet

Finally they made it even though the so-called 'surprise' was totally did not happen according to the plan but Seha came, so YAY!

They have the same face expression. weird

"Johan, kaw cover ape tu doh! hahaah"

After we gave a visit to the museum. It was a fun day!

My girls <33

I'd say I had fun and I think they were having fun too. It would be great if we had more time to just chill out and talk and laugh. You know like spend more time together. I miss those moments where we did nothing other than sit back and relax and just talk rubbish and laugh at our stupidity or our jokes. I'd pray for that day to come :) Whoa now I'm emotional! Gotta stop right here. Oh it sucks I didn't take photos with Seha or MJ or the birthday girl or anyone, like just two of us. Whatever, at least I have some photos and I know there will be a day where I can take tons of photos with the girls. To the boys, hmm nak cakap apa eh? Hm thanks for coming perhaps? Yeah, thanks dudes!

PS: We pig out and ate a lot of food. I didn't even know what the hell did I put in my mouth! Haha

PSS: There are more photos but I just thought it's too much to put on here. XO

Hopes and Fears

2009-12-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

I read something on the internet and there's this line or sentence or whatever you call it that really caught my attention. It really give me chills. The words are really true and pure. So what I would like to say is, Dude, shut up, and read the quote below and then take a look around and hell be thankful for everything. Don't be such a baby and whine about stuff because let's face it, shits happen but at the end of the day you have to get over with it and move on. Live the moment. This goes to everyone! Cheers

"Life is a journey. You go through good and bad along the way but you have to stop and experience each part in order to go on to the next thing."

PS: Happy Birthday Beyla! XO

PSS: I went to picnic with my friends and we had pretty good day so the update for it with photos will be later!

#RIPKevinsVirginity

2009-12-20T12:47:00.002+08:00

Hey :)

Yes you did read the title correctly! I saw that on Twitter and they were like "This needs to be a trending topic". I'm like "Damn, what the hell?" I laughed so hard of the thought that Kevin's married and all they were talking about was that he's having sex for the first time with his wife. Like that even matter.

Anyways, i saw this Jimmy Kimmel video on Youtube and it's about.. you know what, just play the damn video.

"The Kevin Jonas Virginity Countdown"

PS: It's super short and I don't know why I blogged about someone's virginity. I just thoughtteh video was funny.

PSS: Happy married Paul Kevin Jonas the 2nd ;) bow-chika-wow-wow

GLEE

2009-12-17T14:36:00.003+08:00

Hello people of planet Earth :) What is up with y'all? I'm doing fine here (if you're wondering) Lemme tell you what I did at home. I woke up at 12, took a shower, brunch, doing chores, watching TV and DVDs and online. Yes that's basically what I do everyday. Lipat baju, basuh pinggan, kemas dapur, sidai baju, masak nasi, kemas family hall and kemas bilik. I'm sure my parents must be so lucky to have a daughter like me :) I'm gonna puke now

I wanted to study but honestly I have no idea where to start so instead of opening my book, I'm 'opening' the laptop and update my blog and watch Youtube! One of the things that I'm quite good at.

Okay did you notice my blog title for this entry? It's called "GLEE". Have you ever heard of this title/word/show? Yes, GLEE is an American musical comedy-drama television series. It focuses on a high school show choir (aka a glee club), called "New Directions!". I've never watch this show cause it's still airing in States but I read a lot of good feedback from the viewers and they went nuts after watching this show. I am not the 'musical-drama' kind of girl but after I heard some of the songs that the casts covered on Youtube, they did a pretty good job. I also saw the teaser trailer and it seems like a good show to crack some laughs. I cannot wait to download or watch it online. It seems like a pretty cool TV show. Oh please play the videos under, they're some of Glee's songs.

Quotes

2009-12-13T22:46:00.003+08:00

Please tell me you miss me. Pretty please with a cherry on top? :) Okay ew that's sound so.. ugh never mind.
Hello hello :) I know it's been forever since I update some stuff well not that you guys care or not, I'm just trying to convince myself that you care enough to get excited when you see this entry. Pfft I'm a dork. Whatever. Anyways, this post as usual will be damn pointless so go on and do some other stuff before you read this one out but if you still want to stay your ass put then great!

Listen um I have nothing interesting to tell (like always) so this one will be kind of lame and just some random quotes that I took from Nathan's character in One Tree Hill. You know I always find that every single character in the series has their own quotes that is so inspiring and make you understand more or explain some stuff. Basically, about life, love and friendship. I used to love this television drama 'Gossip Girl' but when I looked back I'm like "What the hell am I thinking? This is crap, there's no moral values. It's just about lying bitches and back stabbing your friends". So then I started to watch One Tree Hill and I loved it. There's more life and reasons to watch the series. Of course there are dramas and issues but at the end of the day (or the episode) you'll always get something like a lesson from every single one. Before the credits roll, one of the characters will do like a voice over thingy and every time it will give me chills or goosebumps or the nod, you know the 'oh-that's-right' kind of nod cause every word from them is true. I don't care if you grasp my meaning or not. Anyway, that's why I think I'm going to put on some of the quotes that I found interesting and so-called life changing. ha ha I kid you not!

Nathan Scott:

"You know it's been said that we just don't recognize the significant moments of our lives while they are happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it's usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you've realized how wrong you've been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it."

"Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, and if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back."

"As far as I'm concerned, Shaw was a punk. Cause you know what? Tragedies happen. What are you gonna do, give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure your still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for."

There are more quotes but let's just take one character's quote at one time and whenever I'm stuck I'll just post some more, okay? Yes :) I know you may think that the words above are probably nothing but if you read it over and over I'm sure you gonna understand why. Okay I'm not gonna ramble anymore. Goodnight lovelies ;)

PS: My weekends pretty sucked ass. Lunch and dinner: Nasi minyak orang kahwin. Damn

Falling off from the sky

2009-12-07T20:22:00.002+08:00

Yes I want money to fall off from the sky. As if it will ever happen but whatever a girl can dream right? Hello people, what is up with y'all and your money? I hope the money's doing great. ha ha Does anyone here like money? Cause I know I do and god money is like the best smell in the world. I don't need perfume cause honey I would love money rather than a perfume or any scent in the world. So if you have any just gimme some of that okay buddy?

Okay before the idea of me being a money lover comes to your mind I should say I'm not that desperate to talk about money. It's just that when I'm doing this entry I was thinking about money like how can I earn them. I'm not talking about allowance cause I do get my allowance. It's just that it would be better to get extra money so I can buy more stuff that I want without my parents feel the burden. Everytime I went out and theres always these cute shirts, jeans, shoes, handbags, jackets, accessories and books and they're all are very tempting. Whenever I pick up an item that's very classy and oh-so-cute like for an example a handbag, it will talk to me. Literally. I know it sounds weird but the bag will speak to me like "Come and get cause I am pretty and so worth it". Gosh! That's killing me man. You know what I mean? Do you ever get those kind of feelings? I have this urge to buy and my inner voice are yelling at me like "Get that tote, it's cute even though it'll cost you 115 it will be worth it". I mean come fucking on! I can't just grab anything that I want and by anything that I want is pretty much a lot and they'll consume a lot of money and I don't have a lot of cash. Hence, I'm talking about money just now. But it's okay whatever I'll find my way or just keep the feeling of splurging deep down inside.

Last night I was Skype-ing with my sissy and we talked a lot and she told and showed a lot of stuff that she bought there which also I'm jealous. I'm like she bought a lot of branded stuff with cheap price compared to the price here, it's way cheaper. I always wanted a leather jacket and it's quite pricey here so I asked her how much does it cost there in UK. She told me about Boxing Day which a crazy day for people who wanted to buy a few stuff before the Christmas and she told me that you can get a leather jacket from Burberry or DKNY or Zara or Tommy Hilfiger for only 80 pounds on Boxing Day. Shut up! I looked up on internet and a Burberry jacket costs you almost 400 pounds. She told me I can get it for 80 pounds? Oh I'm so going to bank in the money! I know it's probably RM 300 something if I buy it here but I think it's okay if you want to splurge on something once in a while. I mean think about it, do you rather buy a cheap 'leather' jacket that can be wear for a couple of years? Or do you rather buy an expensive and real leather jacket and can be wear for a lifetime? I'd go for the second one. Plus a designer brand will costs you more that a thousand ringgit Malaysia but you can have a designer brand for only RM 300 and it's not a fake one. I think I made a smart choice didn't I?

Okay I know it must be so lame that first I'm talking about money then to leather jacket and I know it may seems pointless but you know I'm just giving you my thought. But I guess if you think I 'm wasting my money to buy a jacket well I'm sorry then. This is what I want and when I wanted something I'll work on it and try to get it. Plus, if you are the kind of person that knows fashion and styles and labels then you'll understand me.

PS: Everyone should have a leather jacket. Seriously you have to have one. he he

ranting some bs

2009-12-04T17:36:00.004+08:00

Aloha and welcome to my blog! Sheesh that's weird but anyway do you like the new blogskin? It's dark and solid and mamai likey ;) Yes today entry will be extremely short. yawn yawn

I have no idea what to write on here. I have nothing interesting to tell cause I didn't go out cause I have no mood to go out. So yeah this pretty much sucked ass. If there's anything to tell then I will. Later.

PS: I finally ate prosperity burger :) I know..shut up!

Take me to the disco

2009-11-29T13:48:00.004+08:00

Telinga masuk air gara-gara berenang mengalahkan seorang pro hingga sekarang telinga sebelah kiri pekak. Apalah nasib.. Waktu pagi ber-jakuzi dan memanaskan badan dalam bilik sauna. Fuh pertama kali berpeluh tanpa buat apa-apa sepanjang cuti persekolahan ini. Selesai berenang untuk membuang lemak jahanam, nafsu makan tak terkawal, kami semua melantak di hadapan TV Plasma yang terdapat dalam Suit Eksekutif. Inilah dikatakan percutian :) Tidak mengapa, petang hari kami berhasrat untuk ke gym dan bermain bola keranjang. Haha semoga tercapai harapan kami semua.

Yes that's practically how I start my day and what we're planning on doing at Pulai Spring but now I'm stuck on the computer waiting for lunch. It's like a cyber cafe here in the family hall because my uncle and aunts are busy with their Facebook. Yep, they're FB-holic :) So that's why I'm in the mood to blog something and trying to put on some good word for this entry cause they will never yell at me for switching on the computer cause they're doing the same thing. Okay now I am lost, there's nothing more to tell. Hence, this post will be extremely short. But I just wanna let you know I had fun here and I hope y'all are having fun too.

PS: I'll update later but not soon ;)

It's amazing how things can change in the blink of an eye

2009-11-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

As far as my friends know I am generally a happy person. I'm pretty sure no one would understand why I'd say they know I am generally happy, but that's fine, because no one has to understand it but me. I am happy or at least I try to be. I don't know what's going on with me right now. There's too much emotion in me until there's one point I don't know how I feel and that's not a good thing right? I really don't know what to blog but I am in the mood to write something so I've decided to just blog now since I have to get my butt off from the internet because my family and I will be going on a holiday! Yay for that :) Okay so in this entry I am going to rant about anything randomly cause I've been thinking a lot of things to write on this post but it turns out my brain's not working very well so I just give it a go. If this post turns out to be another crap from me, I am sincerely sorry and get the fuck off.

I'm such a dreamer that it scares me. I don't understand myself. I am sure that this words come across your mind like you don't understand yourself, like you're still figuring yourself out or why is it so hard to reach out to yourself because you feel like parts of you just keep leaving and somehow you seem lost. Believe me, I kept questioning myself everyday and there's a part of me that still don't know who am I supposed to be. I know it sounds pathetic but that's typical because I am a teenager and I am learning and phasing. There's ups and downs and yes I am okay with all of that shit.

I had an entire life plan, a goal, dream, but sometimes I don't know what's going to happen anymore. I am the kind of person that doesn't want to fade in the crowd, neither do I want to stand out. Is there a way to stay in between, or am I just thinking too much? I don't know why I write too much crap on my blog and I don't know why anyone would chose to read it. After I typed out everything I will re-read it and I would go "I am a total loser" and I don't like that feeling.

This year I realized that I am still the same but totally different. I'm sorry for those who don't have faith, for those who don't believe in miracle, for those who have to hide behind a mask, for those whom are 2 different people, for those who try to act cool, for those who think they're helping someone but in truth they're making everything messier, for those who choose to be followers because they're too scared to be leaders, for those who try too hard on everything, for those who feel they'll never be accepted, for those who hate their lives, for those who think they'll never be worth anything, for those who're so vulnerable to the world. The truth is, I'm some of those, but I'm not sorry for myself. I've never been sorry about anything for myself. The world is just so beautiful, so confusing, so amazing and so depressing and too much word to describe. Just like life. The highgs and lows are never gone, it's a never ending roller coaster that no one chooses to go on, but are forced on.

So what if I am lame or someone that they can make fun of. I don't care because this is reality, a real life and I am very much okay to live with this kind of life where there are still goods and bads, ups and downs.

I took this one from Lucas Scott of One Tree Hill, "There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back."

PS: Emotion strikes me tonight hence this post.

PSS: I can't wait for tomorrow cause Pulai Spring awaits for 'family day'. Loads of fun ;)

Edward and Jacob bring the sexy back

2009-11-27T23:50:00.001+08:00

Hello people of planet Earth and Twi-hards out there that's currently still drooling over New Moon. Oh yeah man I've watched the movie last Thursday and tonight is the only time that I have to sit down properly and type out some shits. Most and for all, I wish you Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha :) Now let's talk movie!

OH MY GOD, New Moon is way better than Twilight. I swear. The storyline, the colour in the movie is much alive and yeah better and I am satisfied. (okay this is lame) Seriously if you haven't watch it, please get your butt to the cinema and buy a ticket and watch it. Worth every penny and I can assure that I will watch it again and again and again. Yep, the movie is THAT good! hehe They adapt a lot of scene from the book compared to Twilight and they took quite a lot of words from the book. The movie has all emotion in one. You want sad or happy or thrill or hate, you name it because they'll give you that. I would give standing ovation to the actors especially the three main actors because they did a very good job on their works.

Kristen Stewart, you are my girl. You made me cry girl when you scream in your bed and when the month changes. Kristen did a hell of a job and that's what I call acting without faking it.

Robert Pattinson, the moment he came out from the black Volvo, the people in the theater screamed, shrieked. I was like "Oh God" because my brother was next to me. (control gedik babe!) He did so well when he broke up with Bella and when the part where Bella came for him in Italy was like "woooo-hooo"! ha ha Anyways, the fight scene with the Volturi was intense and damn he loves Bella so much. I just wanted to punch that smug face of Felix the bastard and Dakota, why'd you have to be such a bitch? You look good in Jane character but seriously you need to stop.

Jacob equals to one word, hot. He's buff and half-naked, what more do you want girls? Get on him! ha ha Jacob also did a good job on his part and he made a very cute werewolf.

I have a lot to say about the main characters but I don't think I can put them into words so I would suggest that y'all should watch it in theaters and tell me about it. I am satisfied but I have to admit I am so fed up with the ending. A cliff hanger, seriously? I am all excited about Edward asking Bella to marry him but why stop there? There's more in the book.. Grr but I am so loving this movie!

After the movie rolled credits, my brother and I were like "Dude, when's the next movie?" Which I am stoked that Eclipse will be in theaters next July! Yes you got that right, it's a confirm on their website July 30th 2010. You guys excited? I know I am and I am counting down the days since yesterday. Freak

Oh and if the girls in the movie theater are so loud you have to yell at them like "Shut up bitch you're annoying" cause that's what I did but I cut out the bitch part. They can be pretty wild and for guys please put on some deodorant or something that smells nice when you want to go for a movie cause there's this dude who sat next to my brother stinks so bad until my brother had to cover up his nose with his shirt. Pity him

I should end this post right now and get on with few other stuff. So if y'all think that my movie review sucks ass, you do yourself a favour and go watch that damn movie. XOXO

PS: WATCH THE TWILIGHT SAGA: NEW MOON - NOW

PSS: I wanna watch the movie again and again

PSSS: I am annoying and maybe this post is like crap. shit

Don't be afraid to jump then fall

2009-11-25T15:37:00.000+08:00

Woooo-hoooo! Oh yeah see the picture up there? That's your present for the day because you've visited my blog and for the first time in the week I felt alive after I saw this photo of him that makes me want to know how does it feel to touch those strong arms or abs. I am joking people but seriously Taylor Swift is damn lucky. Oops I forgot to say Hello beautiful people ;) How are you doin'? I've been missing you too. (well maybe that's too much) Just so you know this update would probably sucks because it's going nowhere cause it's pointless I guess. Just trying to update about some crap on how I am excited about a few things. So if you're not willing to read my BS then you still have time to go away, I'll give you 5 seconds.

I am frankly excited for tomorrow actually. If you guess New Moon, dude you totally can read my mind! 26 November is THE day that I've been waiting for since last year. It has been the day that I've been talking about for months. I sound so drama-ish. Whatever, the point is I'm gonna be stoked man! After I watch the movie tomorrow I am sure going to update a few stuff about how charming is Edward or how fucking hot is this dude named Jacob and how Dakota Fanning turns out to be a vampire bitch from a girl-next-door. Sure as hell I will. Anyways, I am going with my brother tomorrow and maybe three times or more with my friends and anyone who is a twi-hard. Call me sweetie?

In case you are wondering what did I do on school holidays but if you're not just shut up and read. I've been watching One Tree Hill. I am crazy about this shit. I am like addicted to the story. It would be nice if I get the chance to experience some of the things in the series like being married at 16 with a hot basketball player who is a bastard turns to a very protective and responsible gentleman that loves so much and dearly he would die for you. Ha ha but honestly OTH has change my perspective towards friends, family, love, high school and real life. It's inspiring and yeah educational. Maybe that's what I thought. Anyways, I'm on season 6 now and season 7 is still airing in the States so it'll probably take a while until the DVD comes to stores. In the meantime, I am going to locked myself in my very dark room and watch this incredible television series over and over again and practically cry, scream, laugh and yell foul language until I come to my senses to study. Fuck
I just thought you should know about what I am doing on the holidays so you can tall me yours? Great

I also am reading Twilight and New Moon for god only knows how many time. I guess I'll be seeing them tomorrow then :) I also missed my sister and my friends. Hoping to hang around a lil bit more with my friends just like the old time sakes doing stupid, goofy things. Talking and laughing about our 'favourite' topic. Yeah I am praying for that day to come again. It feels like there's a huge gap between us, like they're all are fading away. I don't know, I don't really wanna talk about it.

Well there you have it, the suckiest update ever. hehe I hope I can write more but Nathan Scott, the hot-tall-handsome-basketball-player is calling to watch him play ball. Catch up with you later kay?

PS: Nathan Scott is on One Tree Hill. Yes I like him. God dammit he's a beautiful boy

PSS: Enjoy watching New Moon

PSSS: Have fun on your holidays. Time for you to rebel ;D

Even if the sky is falling down

2009-10-19T16:01:00.000+08:00

Yo it has been a while right? Kinda lazy to update so since I have not updated my blog so here it goes. I have nothing to share or tell you though so if this gets bored, get the hell out then :)

Newsflash: I WANT AN iPod

Yes you read it the right way. RIP to my most favourite and beloved Samsung Mp3 that is sadly cannot be used anymore :( Oh I'm gonna miss the shit that I always carry around with. I thought it's still capable of playing the songs but sadly no. This is due to a 3 year old kid who threw it on the floor without feeling guilty. Boo! I'm not blaming your brother Nina. It's just my fault cause I gave him the cute little Mp3 for him to play. I should've known boys :)

Hence, the iPod.I've browsed the the iPod Apple.com at I've always wanted an iPod before. The classic to be exact but it's too expansive for me now though. I'm choosing either Shuffle or the new Nano. I think I should buy the Shuffle cause it's really cute and I don't need to watch videos right? So what's the point if I buy iPod Nano? Right but I have to buy a phone first then the iPod. I'm waiting for my sister to send me the phone that she'll buy for me from Manchester cause according to her it's much cheaper there. Hmm layankan saja.

I cannot live without music (cehh drama) Seriously if I go out, there must be earphones plugged in my ears cause if it's not then I feel like I missed something like something's not right. Yes I am THAT freak.

PS: What colour? I love all of them :)

PSS: I know this entry is so effing lame. Sorry I have nothing to write, I should get a life. ha ha

PSSS: My current obsession. The song and Lil Wayne's part <33>

Always looking down at all I see

2009-10-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

I've been roaming around

Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak

Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see

That's 'Use Somebody' by Kings of Leon and I love this band and the behind meaning of the lyrics. I've been figuring out what's the meaning of this song and why would he wants to use somebody? So I've found on google about the interpretation and it helps a lot. Now I can sing the song and actually understand the song. Beautiful :)

The interpreter says this song is about someone who’s been there, done that, got the t-shirt kind of person. All they’ve had is one night stands and they thought that that was enough. They look down on relationships and all their friends who are in relationships.

But then they meet the person that makes them want to settle down and they’re willing to do whatever it takes to get that person’s attention. They see that they’re not better than everybody else and that what they were looking down on is actually what they want now. They’ve met that person that sends their world topsy-turvy. (whaaaa?)

Okay that's clear enough. Obviously I'm not in that kind of situation but I just thought I share it with you guys. By the way the guy who interprets this is gay. Ha Ha and he said he wants to make love with a guy and it mean something, I thought that was hilarious cause he's so so true like he's not ashamed to state that he is not straight. He wrote it on his blog

PS: I don't even know why I post this. I guess I ran out of idea so I heard this song and I thought I should post.

PSS: I know it's not Kings of Leon but pfft come on she is legit!

Sometimes you gotta act like you don't care

2009-10-15T23:32:00.001+08:00

Don't we look cute? Ha Ha bapak poyo! This was last Saturday. We had fun, well I did.

Sometimes I hope everything that's happening right now stops cause it gets annoying and lame and god damn sickening. I know some of us (including myself) are not compatible with each other but please don't act like a 4 year old. If you don't like that person, don't show your attitude in front of them like how annoyed you are. Just be cool cause that shows how you've grown up. Everything happens for a reason and the past is past, what done is done and can not be undone. That's what we call LIFE. Mistakes happen and we take them as lessons. So tell me why the fuck are you guys arguing about something that's practically not important. You have someone else and she has someone else, so what's the point you guys are not talking with each other? You've moved on and so can he.. moved on with your friend. So what? It's not like they're getting married or anything. I mean if you love him you shouldn't let him go at the first place but you did.. so it's not her fault... Right? You see I'm not trying to be in the middle or anything I'm just confuse with all this shit that makes me want to kick someone's flat, small ass and punch their boobs or something. It's irritating and we try not to care but sometimes it gets ugly. I'm not defending anyone here or blaming anyone I'm just giving you my opinion since I can't get a chance to talk so there you go I post it on my blog. My blog is the only place that I can pour my feeling into and be honest because I know if I have a chance one on one, someone's gonna cut in when I'm talking and fucked up everything. Well if you think I say too much, then I can't say I'm sorry cause I have the right to tell you what I think hence the blog update. I'd be sorry if after you read this you would think bad of me and look down on me but who the hell cares, like I said it's just MY POVs. The rest is up to you guys cause I'm just saying, if you take it to consideration, good if not, I can't do anything.

I cursed a lot. I don't know why but everytime when I'm typing after midnight, I always cursed. Sorry for the foul language yo!

PS: She's trying to be nice to you so why can't you be?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements?

2009-10-15T20:25:00.000+08:00

When I listen to love songs I always think its possible it can happen to me. All the happy endings artists sing about seems so surreal. Ha ha yes I thought about that today and I don't even know why. Ehh maybe watching my friends so happy with their significant others (cehhh) make me you know kind of want to feel what they're feeling now. STFU a girl can dream you knoww?! what the hell am I talking about, please go away emotions. Not now.

Hello :) It has been a while since my last post and I thought I am the only one who did not update but apparently I'm not the only one. So it's good :) So I do not know what to blog about so if this gets too lame or anything then you can leave and watch some porn okay? Hm let's see I'm not going to talk about school cause I'm sure as hell I'll be ranting on and on, I'm not going to talk about this 'friendship drama' at school cause it's really annoys me and I'm not going to talk about boys, dating, making out or how awkward it is when two people kissing on the mouth and both of their heads go left side cause my friends talked about that before so that has been covered :) So what to tell about... I guess nothing, just bear with me.

Oh after for God knows how long I took time for this I think whenever someone compliments me, I'm going to try not denying it because I'll put myself down even more. Agree? Yesss! And then I'll try not to over think and stay as positive as I can and I know I can do it. (Trying to be positive right now) what else what else..

Alright, well that's it. Pfft my life isn't all that interesting :) Go and read someone else's blog!

PS: I want to marry him or at least a guy like him <3

PSS: I've told you I'll write nothing on this entry. Shit. It's seems not to be related with each other. (WTH)

The Twilight Saga: New Moon-The Official Illustrated Movie Companion

2009-10-12T22:34:00.000+08:00

Hey lovelies :) What you've been doin' lately? I'm kinda miss you ya know, with no post and all that shit. (imagine I talk like a gangsta with all the attitude) Anyways, I know I haven't post much lately. I'm way busy than Obama. Okay that's a lie but I do not lie about the busy part. Hence, there's no blog update. I mean of course none of you would read my update I know but still I have to write more. For this one, I'm not gonna talk about my last weekends since it's just raya and stuff that makes me what to throw up because of some people's attitude. Grow the hell UP honey. Oh and please DO NOT WATCH BORAT for God's sake.

Yes, be jealous cause what you've read on the title is so true! I bought the book. Oh yes :)

Oh I'm so excited and you can ask Caca how excited I was wen I saw this. I was like her when she's excited to see Maya Karin on some magazines cover. I jump and almost scream. Not my proudest moment of the day but I am proud to be the owner of the book even though I have to spend a lot of money on that book but it was as hell worth every penny of it. A beautiful book loaded with tons of information on the upcoming film and very informative and lot's of personal quotes from all the main actors. If you're a twi-hard then I think you should buy this but I think you have to wait for like 3 weeks from now cause I bought the last copy from Popular ;) and MPH just ordered a few more since the first stock sold out. You see how huge this Twilightsaga did to us? I'm glad but I have to go now. Bed's calling me to lay down there :)

PS: Taylor looks hot in this book and the vampires are just ahhh fine and mmm (Edward at least) ;)

This lie, I can't pretend. This time I need a friend.

2009-10-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

I'd rather fall into deep sleep and never wake up. (well part of it is a lie)

I've been loosing everyone but except a few of them, they actually stick by me :) I LOVE YOUS
JOKE. I've wasted my time for this shit and I'm through with this crap. God don't be such a girlie Maisarah. Toughen up a lil bit
I have trust issue. I'm afraid to trust someone so easily and the next thing I know people talking behind my back. Nice move jack ass
I don't like it when some people talk bout stuff right in front of you and it makes you curious and then you ask what they're talking about and they say "Oh, nothing important" or when they making faces like they're so annoyed cause I ask something that stops their conversation for like a second. GET A FUCKING LIFE BIATCH instead of bitch talking about people.
Inspiration has been lofting lately and I'm afraid it won't come back again :( So bear with all the 'dramatic' post I so called it or you called it 'controversial'? eww
I'm done with people who try to make someone's business their fucking business. Don't be cowards, say it to my face, our face if you think there's something that we need to sort out. Bring the hell on.
There are so many things that I want to change about my life. I'm so done with everything. School and friends. There's no excitement and fun. It's just an okay feeling and I'm not okay with that feeling. I want more. Yes I am SELFISH but can't that happen? I barely ask for anything.
I guess everything happens for a reason but I just wish GOOD things would start happening a little bit faster than normal. It would make my boring life much better :)

PS: I cursed. So what? I know you do too, so you can't say I have no right to curse on my blog cause it's public. Get a life would you? Thanks

PSS: If you thing this post is verrry emo, ha ha I've told you I have not been inspired by anything lately so there you go with emo crappy stuff. Enjoy :)

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life

2009-10-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

"If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep, I can think that we just carried on"- MIKA

True story. I always listen to everyone's problems, whether I am close with that person or not I'm always ready to listen to their problems. I tried to be their place to turn to, to share anything and if they ask me to make a promise then I'll make my promise. That's how loyal I am as I try to say a good listener. Another true story, I do not tell them my stories. Why? Stupid reason I should say, I don't know why. Every time they ask me, "Yo, tell us something about you. How's your weekends?" (something like that lah) and my answers, are always "Pfft my life's too boring, you would never want to know". I would say I don't have stories or I'd say "It's okay, tell me yours?"

I always let people give in with their stuff but I never let mine. Maybe some of you think that's not fair but don't worry of course I tell them a few of my not-so-important kind of life but not too much. I don't know why, maybe I'm scared to share some things. Not that I have a lot of personal issues but yeah I mean I gotta admit I have some fears in my life. I'm always too cautious about everything. I act cool, I act like 'Nah it's okay don't show your emotion cause you're gonna be okay' but in truth all the 'coolness' is basically physical but inside, I worried too much. Important notes, if I do show my emotions, it will be worse. I cried easily like if you tell me your sad stories I'll cry. I have this kind of level to control my emotions but once I can't control them anymore I just break down and cry like an ugly baby and yeah bear with the hormones kicking in.

I'm not blaming other people especially my friends for not listening it's just that I'm the one who's not telling them. I think sometimes I gotta spare some things for myself and make my own promises by myself. You know I want to tell them a lot of things, share some things but I guess they have always been the one who'd be the storyteller and I am the listener and I am cool with that. Or maybe my life's too plain until I do not have anything to tell? That's what I always thought.

Nur Shafiqah Binti Mohamed,

I'm sorry for the things that I've done to you. The things that you have read that have broke your heart. Makes you wondering "I thought you are my BFF ", I am sorry. I thought I shouldn't write about us here because I don't want this whole situation goes on public so I am hoping we could talk about this and sort things out and confess everything. I understand if this is not the right time for us to talk because of the whole drama thing at school that makes me want to punch somebody's face and boobs. (NOTE: Not the 'someone' who you thought, just random school girls) But kwenchanayeo I will wait for us to have some peace and talk. One thing's for sure I will stand up for you if anything happens. Promise. Babe, let them be who they want to be but I hope US will not change to that point. I really wanna know the truth and I Love You EJ :)

PS: I don't even know if the things that I write here are related with each other. Maybe not

PSS: Eiqa, aku minta maaf. Aku sayang kau tahu?

PSSS: Eiqa, thanks cause you act cool about this and understand. xoxo

Two Worlds Collide

2009-10-06T17:23:00.000+08:00

WARNING: The longest post I've ever written out. Be prepared to get bored lovely readers :)

Greetings to the readers :) Hey thanks for stopping by and read my crap. I'm honored. (eww wth?!) Anyways, do you still remember about my last blog entry which I said I would tell you about what happened recently? About the whole trusting-who issue? Yes that one and I have to say that I will not write about it. Not because I'm chickening out or anything, it's just that sometimes I have to keep something for myself a bit, you know not publishing it where any people can read it because sometimes you gotta let some things inside and not be in public and of course there will always be something that you can share with others in public. For now, I just can not say what it is about so we'll talk about a topic that seems to be related to the last entry.

Cheers to whoever that has a best friend by your side. This one's for you!

Did you ever ask yourself what is exactly a best friend means? I have to admit I did ask myself. I asked myself what do I want in my best friend. Do I have one? So let's figure this shit out shall we..

Your closest, most trusted, and valued friend are the thoughts that I have in my mind when it comes to best friend.
Sharing secrets, crying, laughing, fighting, gossiping, shopping, and talking endlessly about boys are pretty much the fun. The most important thing he or she will never talks behind your back. Shit talking I would say. That's a NO NO in a friendship. I know you'll always tend to say "Duh everyone talks behind everyone's back" well shame on you for me best friend does not count 'everyone'.(figure that out if you do not understand) Best friend is someone, a somebody, an important person that plays a huge part of your life. A best friend would never dare to be fake on you and would not tells a lie (depends on the condition) because he or she knows it will hurt you pretty bad. He or she will never stab you behind your back and never tells anyone your secret. He or she would never brake promises that they made. He or she will stand by your side even if everyone thinks that you are nothing but worthless. He or she would never thinks bad of you even a second. That particular best friend would tell you that you are beautiful even when you're feeling so low. That kind of best friend would be happy for your excellent achievements and that best friend would guide you through out everything and discover all the beautiful things together. For me a best friend is the kind of person that you can always talks to, you can cry in front of.. let's use her (I am tired to type out 'he or she') so.. you can cry in front of her about anything without thinking "I looked fcking ugly when I cry" or she's the girl that you can laugh at when she does her stupid jokes or when she says bad words you know she's not serious. Oh she will always listen to your problems and tells you advices and give her opinion without breaking you heart. She's the person that you can call in the middle of her sleep and tell her that you missed her or how much you love your boyfriend or the person that you can have a conversation 5 hours straight. To say it short, she's there right on your command and she's THE one that you can always turn to and the one that you can trust with no hesitation. She's your other half and without her you're not complete.

Wow that was a long one. Hold on there's more to come ;)

What you've just read above is what I see in a best friend. I do not know about you but I know that's what I'll always find in a best friend and that's the best friend that I also wanted to be. Do I have a best friend? I'm not sure of that (how sad) but one thing's fo sho I have a close friend that I can trust on, that I know she will be there for me even when it all comes falling apart (oh you better be there! haha) and I know that she knows I will always be there for her and never even a second I thought bad about her. Not even once. She opens up my eyes and tell me who's with me and who's not. Maybe she's not my other half now but I know she has the quality of being a good and better best friend perhaps a girlfriend for boys out there ;) I love her even though people still talking shit about her because I know she's not like that. I admit I'm not the girl that knows her like the back of my hand (means I knew everything about her) but knowing someone so long does not mean you are his or her best friend. It's how you treat her, how you understands her and how true you are to that person reflects who you are as a true best friend. <3

I may not be a good friend which I'm trying to be and I may not be the right person to tell you off about what's the quality of a friend that you should have but I just wanted to share what I really thought of a best friend. I've been back-stabbed, people talked shit about me and that's why I wrote this because you would never want a friend like that and the reason why I wrote this also because all the quality above that I find in a best friend is really what I want. I do not copy anything, it's true from my heart and I'm praying to God while I'm writing this that He'll send me my other half and show me the truth behind everyone faces.

PS: I'm not emo, I go with the flow babbyyy

PPS: To the girl I mentioned her name above, it's okay if you're not thinking the same way about me, you know about the whole 'I trust you and I'll be there' thing? yeah I'm cool if you think we are just normal friends at school because you have the other friend in boarding school but to me you are my closest and I thanked you <3

PPPS: "A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out." -Grace Pulpit

I'm not ready to make nice

2009-10-01T20:37:00.000+08:00

Yes I am not ready to make nice :) A very true statement indeed. Wow I've found out a lot today at school. Not about school subjects but something that breaks my heart and make me look like a fool. What an idiot? It's a shocker for someone to tell me what's been going on when I'm not around them. I am a fucking idiotic person for not seeing that coming. Wow, just WOW. I don't know who I can trust and who I can't. I guess this is what it meant by high school. Tons of bullshit.

PS: I'll tell you later on the next post. I'm just not in the mood to type it all out cause I know I'll cry. Shame on me

You lied to me once but you won't have the second chance

2009-09-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

You tell a lie once and I don't even care I thought I was okay with it. You fool me once but I thought it was a joke. You say sorry a lot I accepted your apologies and never look back at what you've done. You tell me your secrets and I never tell anyone because I'm hoping you won't tell nobody. I was wrong. Obviously. You're sick to the core, you're a joke, you're selfish little brat, you're fake. Everything insides you are nothing but lies beneath all of it. You are worthless and a shame. You've had me once but you will never get under my skin again. But to top it all off, I'd say thanks to you because of you I know how mean people could do you.

PS: You see I don't call you a bitch but why'd you call me that?

PSS: I'm not making a scene but I just wrote anything that I want that I thought people should know how I feel because I hardly ever tell my emotions. Especially anger and my utter disgust towards people.

PSSS: This one person I wrote about has nothing to do with my closest friends at school, so chillax mannn

"If I walk would you run?"

2009-09-28T20:19:00.000+08:00

I'm currently in love. Not with a real guy actually but I'm in love with this guy name Asher Book's beautiful, soothing voice. OMIGOD my heart melt when I heard his voice singing 'Try' the OST of the new coming movie called 'FAME'. It's a movie remake. Oh I can't get enough. Just imagine that a guy dedicate you this song even better if he plays the piano and sings just for you. OH I could die. Literally. I do not tell you a lie. You should check him out on youtube or even better download the song. Asher Book - Try.mp3

You will never regret my choice. I have a good taste ya know! haha not bragging :) I can't post the song here or the lyrics cause I think it's not official yet but chek em out. okay? Cool thanks a bunch :) Tell me what ya think about it kay?

I gotta go. Homework calling. shit

Things are not okay

2009-09-27T13:38:00.000+08:00

Hey :) Before I start any further I wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya and I'm sorry for everything that I've done. I know it's like 8th day of raya but lemme tell you I was busy all week. Prepared for raya, went back to kampung, then on Tuesday I went out and Wednesday I stayed home cause I'm so tired and I can't be on the computer cause of my brothers, Thursday I went to Singapore and came back at 1 in the morning, Friday just some open house and Saturday I went out. So that's all my excuses but I know you don't bother about 'em right? I know..

I have a lot to tell you about but minus the pictures. I'm on my lazy mood to upload any photos. This is random okay, not following the exact date. So my Facebook account with the name 'Sarah Zephyr' has been disabled and I don't know why the fuck?What a FAILBOOK! So I have to redo my account, let's say I sign up again with my original name. haha Add me up on FB okay? Cool :)

I went to Singapore, to Sentosa to be exact. It was really fun to be there and I looooove VIVO City. It's a really cool place to hang at with someone. It's low key, just people that are having fun. It's a great place. Oh and lemme tell you those people there thought that they are in a country called USA or UK or any part of the world where there's no Asian blood running through them. Because they're like making out in front of me like really into it. It was hilarious. I mean of course I'm okay with it like I don't mind what they're doing (I watched a lot of that scene on screen) but it's just a shocker because there's no such thing happen in Malaysia, not in my face. LOL wow I went to that small country and all I write about is making out? I need a life. But yeah it was a fun day and night. Even though I've went to Singapore for god knows how many times I never get bored to watch the place and the people passing by with different kind of styles. Oh FYI I still did not like that tiny island. It's an island right? hah I don't know why

Oh the highlight of the week! I WATCH ONE TREE HILL AD I LOVE EVERY MINUTE OF IT! I'm on season 2 and woo hooo I'm hooked :) Try to watch the series and tell me what ya think. I'm such a drama, love, friendship lover so that's why I looooove this one I don't know about you. Okay I gotta run so goodbye, and a kiss on the cheek for you, muahhhh!

PS: Schools tomorrow. Shoot me with a gun please? Thanks a bunch :)

Never ending racetrack you call life

2009-09-18T12:02:00.000+08:00

"Pick up all your tears
Throw them in the backseat
Leave without a second glance
But somehow I'm to blame for this never ending racetrack you call life

So turn right
Into my arms
Turn right
You wont be alone
You might
Fall off this track sometimes
Hope to see you on the finish line"

I've known this song for a longg time but I just put it up on here now cause em idk man it's just feels right. It's heartbreaking to listen to this song and try not to cry :( A beautiful song and it's perfect

Black Keys

2009-09-17T12:21:00.000+08:00

She hates the sun
Cause it proves she's not alone
And the world doesn't revolve around her soul
She loves the sky cause it validates her pride
Never lets her know when she is wrong

And the black keys never looked so beautiful
And a perfect rainbow never seemed so dull
And the lights out
Never had this bright a glow
And the black keys showing me a world I never know

Nick Jonas, Black Keys- Lines, Vines and Trying Times

This is the hardest story

2009-09-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

Just kidding not the hardest story to tell it's just been a while since I updated. I have no time to sit in front of the computer and rambling about my oh so boring life but sometimes I sit here for god knows how long but still I did not update my blog. I'm too lazy to type it out. Yep I should not have a blog account, sue me :) Oh I'm sorry for being rude, Hello beautiful, young people :) Hope you've been well and I'm sorry if you're not.

So I decided not to write such a long update so I'm gonna tell you a few stuff just to yeah update you guys up. (wow I used the 'update' a lot in this update) idiot

There's a lot of stuff going on this past weeks, some of them are good memories and some of them are not. So to sum it all up it's been all good in the hood. I can't wait for Hari Raya and I don't know why. I can't wait for New Moon to come out and I'm stoked cause it seems really good. I'm okay with everything, I'm fed up with a few things, I'm annoyed with some people, I need a serious studying time, I CAN NOT WAIT FOR SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!

I pretty much have nothing to say here. I'm boring for now so I need a fucking new shit to crack me up. Hmm so I guess this is the end. Selamat Hari Raya, Happy Holidays, Have Fun :)

PS: I'm sorry for everything dudes (since it's Raya)

PPS:

I'm Annoying :)

2009-08-28T17:38:00.000+08:00

hello and welcome to you, yes YOU who's reading my blog and wasted your time here. I pretty much appreciate it thank you :) I'm missing my blog and I really don't understand why I did not update my shit because obviously my homework is nowhere to be done, I stay home alone and no chores to do and I keep complaining I have nothing to do except for watching Youtube videos. So can anyone tell me what's wrong me? Oh Oh I know why :) It's because my brain cannot produce any words and it is so annoying I feel like I have a brain tumor or something like that. Moving on..

I'm gonna get screwed once the school starts because i have tons of works that I have to do but I decided NOT to complete 'em. You wanna know why? You wanna know why? Tell me you wanna know why! OKAY NOW I'M A RETARD.
because I don't want to. I am too lazy to finish them all but I know I will start doing Add Math and BM eventually. The rests, you can kiss me goodbye and go to hell :) GAH it's getting on my nerves I DON'T WANT TO GO TO THAT DAMN SCHOOL. No correction, I don't want to go to school. SIGS is practically not a 'DAMN school'. pfft right! Anyways there'll be like 3 more days before school starts and it deff sucks. I can't stand with all the teachers, the screaming, the yelling, the 'oh-my-god-it's-too-much-work' kind of complainment, the kids, the CANTEEN and damn that school smells like shit. I kid you not! I cannot wait for another a year and three months so that I am officially done with school. YAY for that

Enough talking about school.

I'm getting into Twitter now. I don't know why though? So whoever reading this and did not have any Twitter account yet, gosh what a LOSER. bhahaha! Hun, I'm totally JOKING but seriously go sign up and than you can follow me :) YAY and then we can be TwitterBuddy and we chat all day long :) It's pretty easy it's like you're texting your friend. Promise! Look to your right. Yes RIGHT! then search for the 'Here Comes My Tweets' which is in blue and then you can see the 'Follow me on Twitter' so click at there and wallah you are my buddy ;) I need more followers to spice my Tweet mood!

Okay before I further up my rambling I better lay off from here. Sorry if it's bored the hell out of you. I suck at telling stories and such so Goodbye then!

PS: I want to consume a lot of food tonight.
PPS: I'm a dork. I can't stop watching Youtube.
PPPS: This one's to annoy you :)
PPPPS: Not to annoy you but I need some group hugs! so HUGS <33>

Team Taylor

2009-08-25T13:10:00.001+08:00

mother, can I have him? DANG HE'S A HOTTIE

WOOT WOOT I UPDATE! haha
yes up there is 'the' Taylor Lautner. I know I am huge fan of Edward but hey I love Taylor not Jacob :) so this post would be really short but it's just this thing that I have to let it all out.

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets .
So love the people who treat you right ;
forget about the ones who don't ;
and believe that everything happens for a reason .
If you get a chance - take it . If it changes your life : let it .
Nobody said that it'd be easy ;
they just promised it'd be worth it . "

I've learn my lesson and yep I'm going to try not to regret anything that I've done and yes I'm gonna let them talk shit about me cause they pretty much annoy me. In fact they're just chickening out to just tell me right in my face. I'm living my life to the fullest and nothing can stop me unless God has change my plan.

PS: I'm not pointing fingers at anyone like I said I just need to let this whole bunch of mess out in my blog. NOT trying to attract attention or anything. Let's face it I have issues and so do you. Bare with me :)

Meet Jacob Black

2009-08-19T16:27:00.000+08:00

hello wonderful people who read my blog :) pfftt what a dork myself

WARNING: a short and just a video post BUT dude i swear just watch this and you would never regret your time to wait for the video to load. I'm telling you now, your jaw will drop to the floor (i did) cause OMFG Taylor Lauter is one hell of a sexy boy and woo hoo he makes me go like "ahhh oh my god he's effing hot, I want him" well pretty much NOT but I have this urge to touch him all over (his arm and 8-packs-abs stomach). rofl

Quote: "Don't get me Upset" oh yeah man

Change

2009-08-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

"Changing for someone is not the right thing to do
Just be yourself
Believe in yourself
And the rest will come through"

The Next Shakespeare

2009-08-13T20:50:00.000+08:00

WARNING! emotional strikes on me and there go this post :)

"I wanna be the first thing on your mind in the morning
One who knows it's you when you calling
Girls who dries your tears when they falling
I wanna know you like that
I wanna be the one you run to when things get crazy
the only girl that you call your 'babe', 'sayang'
Ones who always got your back
I wanna know you like that"

fullamakk gua tak sangka bole mengeluarkan kata-kata yg mashyukk kot pada aku. haha Thilagavathi bangga dgn aku. KOMPEM!

*cough*serious*cough*
Don't get me wrong or something, but I'm on the edge of feeling to slap someone on the face right now. I need to tell or ask? something to whoever thinks that they can answer my common question. Will I ever have a friend that I can trust with all my heart without second thought? (you probably shouldn't answer my stupid little question cause i'll find it myself) very much thak youuu :)

So that's why all this wordy stuff came out from my brain just because of my 'thoughtfullness'. I know I'm facing the normal thing at my age now but come fucking on.. I don't know but deep down I know there is someone out there that can be my other half. SABAR

emosi emosi emosi emosi emosiiii

sarah faiqah, I'm not sure if you'll be reading this or not but i'll just say Thank You and love you tons! *hugeeeee hug* plus don't get me wrong, I trust you SF :)

"You sort of beautiful"

2009-08-04T19:25:00.000+08:00

HYPERVENTILATING

I just need to show off this picture for this post. Aren't they looked beautiful :) I can't wait for November 26h. I literally went dead fore a few moment when I saw these photos. ahh I need the movie to come out soon so I can stop myself from all the panic attack.
oh and beeteeedubs, here's the link to the official New Moon page : New Moon Official page

p.s: My teeth hurt like a bitch. grr braces suck!

The Volturi

2009-08-03T18:32:00.000+08:00

yo another post dude! but this one is just a picture of The Volturi Clan. You know the 'evil' vampires from Italy. Dakota Fanning will play Jane :) She looks good btw.

Look at them. Scary looking eh? but Marcus looks kind of like a clown. haha so tell me what you think :)

p.s: CANNOT WAIT TILL NOVEMBER 26TH! eekk

BANNED New Moon and Parachute

2009-08-03T16:41:00.000+08:00

hello hello :) oohh I'm so hyper! he he
Okay so for this post I want to show you guys a youtube video about so called "New Moon Trailer" and i found that this video was without a doubt, fcking hilarious. I don't know about you but it did makes me cry you know.
p.s: look at the "Bella", ughhhlayyy! oh and the paper cut scene was dead funny. mcm sial sajaaa

I discovered a new song which I love :) It's the sweetest song you could ever asked for. It would be nice if a guy dedicate you this song or even better, sing the song with the guitar. ahhh I want a boyfriend.. NOT
so I'm going to put the video on and the link for the lyrics. Seriously, check out the lyrics. Beautiful :) promise!
oh and the band called Parachute.

the lyrics : http://www.metrolyrics.com/she-is-love-lyrics-parachute-band.html

From The Hills to The City

2009-08-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

hello once again :) Okay so for this post I wanted to share with you guys about the MTV show that I've been watching and never get bored with. Since I watched The Hills I figured I should watch The City and the show was surprisingly good. If you have time, go and watch it, full of drama. Yep, I love drama/gossip show. So what? I have a life too.

The City is an MTV reality television series and a spin-off of the MTV show The Hills. It documents the changing life and surroundings of Whitney Port as she moves to New York City to work for fashion designer Diane von Fürstenberg.

It is a whole new world for The Hills star Whitney Port as she packs up and moves from the comforts of her hometown in Los Angeles, California, to the bright lights and new comforts of New York City. A best friend from her past and a guy she's infatuated with, Port is taking a risk and an evolving life adjustment. The season ends with Whitney and her Australian boyfriend, Jay Lyon, breaking up.

MEET THE CAST:

Born and raised in Los Angeles, Whitney has always been a California girl. But when an opportunity comes along for her to work with Diane von Furstenberg in New York, she knows the time has come to leave home and her friends to pursue her career in fashion. Now Whitney is taking on the Big Apple with big hopes, plenty of fears and only herself to rely on. She has her work cut out for her, learning the ropes at a whole new level of the fashion industry, and on top of that, finding her way in the uber-competitive social scene of New York City. It's a far cry from Los Angeles, and if Whitney is going to make it here, she'll have to make it on her own.

When Whitney moves to the city, Erin, who she's known for years, is the only person Whitney can call a friend. Erin is a downtown party girl who loves life and confesses to dating three guys at once. Why settle for one if you can get away with three? Who better than someone like Erin to help Whitney navigate the dating scene of New York City?

Don't hate her because she's beautiful. A socialite -- better known in some circles as a 'social' -- Olivia is a native of the Upper East Side and knows New York City top to bottom. Attending a steady stream of society parties, charity events, and celebrity galas, and hosting her own famed rooftop dinner parties, she lives an A-list lifestyle. Working in fashion PR for Diane von Furstenberg, Olivia will teach Whitney a thing or two about New York -- whether Whitney likes it or not. Will Olivia's uptown sensibility clash with Whitney's downtown vibe? The only thing that's certain is Olivia won't be afraid to speak her mind along the way.

The first time Whitney saw Jay, he lit up her life and she knew they'd be together. The only question now is how long will they last? Jay is a musician who likes to stay out late and party with his friends. Whitney thinks he's "beautiful," but she's not the only one. Jay adores Whitney, but will he give in to the temptations lurking around every corner in New York City? Or, after having just gotten out of a long relationship, will he step up and become the man that Whitney needs?

Okay so I might be copying MTV bios of the cast but I give credit for them. I just don't like I want to write and explain every detail about them. You just have to watch the show honey :) Even though there's drama but this show brings up colours and beautiful dresses and styles which I get a little bit inspired. It's fun to watch (promise!) and plus who doesn't love New York City?

Until here then :) btw I usually watch this show on marathon which is every Saturday, 11 PM. Toodles! And just so you know my blog's song is the theme song of The City.

King of Pop, RIP

2009-08-01T16:58:00.002+08:00

Hello lovelies.

It's been a while since I've posted. Actually, it's been about a month. So much HASN'T happened since then, hahahahah. Well thanks to the Lord, finally internet is back on. So now i can be loyal again and back to writing about some shit that you might be not interested to read but whatevs. For now I'm not in the mood to update you readers about my oh-so-boring life, so i know this thing about Michael Jackson's death is a bit too late to write on a post but hello I've been living in a rock this past few months so let me write about him :)

I remember the day I read a newspaper to discover Michael Jackson's death. I couldn't believe it at first but I learned to accept it. He was all over the news. Everyone was mourning, everyone. I'm aware that he is the "King of Pop" I am aware that he is a music legend, an amazing dancer, an extraordinary performer and so much more. Though people are very saddened cause of his death, people were also against him a few years ago when he was accused of child molesting which he was found not guilty of. That's being really hypocritical. One year people were making fun of him, calling him a freak and the next they're mourning for him, sad for him. F or me that's weird.

It became weirder for me when I also noticed that Michael's album sales went sky rocketing after his death. Wasn't he good enough for you to buy his cd's while he was alive? poor him but the bright sight is the cd sales help to pay all of his debts, so i think that's cool and maybe the fans want to pay their last respects by buying all his stuff. i don't know.

I know some die-hard fans were really really touched by him and felt like they knew him as a person but news flash, you didn't. Even I think his family doesn't know bout him too. The media always makes big deals about celebrity deaths. For God's sake Michael's news was on paper every single day for over a month now. I don't mean any disrespect here but let him rest in peace people. Why'd you have to bugging into someone's life like who should have the custody of Michael's children. That's their problem to think of not us and the media should really talk less about how can MJ died or did he commit suicideor whatsoever. There are more stuff to write on other than the late Michael Jackson.

Once again I say, I'm not trying to show any disrespect here. I love MJ and I think he is a very brilliant musician and a wonderful person but honestly we should move on but keep him in our heart.

Michael Jackson, may you rest in peace and may God bless you. You are a true talent and and you have inspire others. Thank you for your beautiful musics. We love you :)
MJ ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Maxis Broadband is such a pain in the ass

2009-07-04T16:05:00.000+08:00

i know i suck at updating stuff since june i think. maxis broadband sucks so that's why i am rarely online. but anyways i'll to get right back on ot. lots to tell from Bandung to Genting to Vixens. all of it. but later kay i'll tell :)

peace and love

My life's suck

2009-06-02T10:37:00.000+08:00

yep honestly it does suck just about now. i mean i don't know because i don't have anything to do here. i probably a blogger that shouldn't have any blog cause seriously i'm out of idea what to write and what not to write. like i'm not some kind of freak to put her own artwork here since i don't actually have one, but the point is i can only write and my shit that i'm writing is well SHITTY.

life's suck at this point because i'm like a computer geek who will sit in front of the computer and just watch stuff and do nothing. i cannot hang out with my friends since i'm not there in JB so i stuck here with my sister and she's busy with her study so yeah i done nothing for this past 3 or 4 days. bullshit

okay so now i don't know what the hell did i just write. please ignore my shit talking - useless and pointless. so please pray for my days to be way much better and then i'll pray for your days too kay pretttty :)

enjoy some vidoes that i hunt from youtube!

Trailer Debut for THE TWILIGHT SAGA: NEW MOON

2009-06-01T11:50:00.000+08:00

Oh Lord finally it's here. the official trailer of New Moon." wow" and "oh my gosh" are the only words that i can let out from my mouth. seriously especially when it comes to the Jacob part when he turned into a wolf. pheww his abs. god dammit! i played the video for god knows how many time. bella look pretty, rob looks messy, taylor looks stunning. honestly you guys should watch the video. like NOW!

here's the link:http:

//www.youtube.com/watch?v=4DzUtktDDeA
http://www.myspace.com/trailerpark

enjoy and cheers!

I'm missing Johor Bahru.

2009-05-31T18:32:00.000+08:00

hey buds. suppp niggas! jkg ;)

yo listen to this, I MISS JB. mhmm yep you got that right. i'm not in JB obviously. for those who doesn't know yet i'm on my early holiday like my friends should finish school last friday but instead i skip for three days since last wednesday. wee hoo! my sister had her convo on the thursday but my dad wanted to have some fun in KL so we went here early. thanks Lord i skipped Physics, Math1 and Sivics papers. now i'm stuck with my sister in Shah Alam. cannot wait to be back in JB this coming June 6 and then off to Bandung. shu-weet! so for my lovely friends, hope you guys are missing me :) i'll be back and looking forward to see all your lovely asses. haha

actually i wanted to fill you guys up with my time in KL but i'm kind of not in the mood to talk about that shit. so to round it all up, i'll talk about it later soon before the school started. hope i don't forget about that. so my only wish now is to hang out with my friends and share some juicy stories. IMISSMYGIRLFRIENDS!

seha, here's to you babe :)

LOOK AT THE F'CKNG PICTURE! seha OMFG here's to us! hahah nah grab dohh ;p

NOTE: this probably not the picture that when you see it you'll be like "WOW HOTT. i want him in my pants" but whatevs it still a nice movie poster for me.

okay so Jacob Black is so NOT my favourite. but gosh this poster is like BAM right on my face, jaw on the floor.now we're talking. this is what i call HOTT with two t's. but FYI i love Taylor Lautner!

DRUM ROLLLL! NEW MOON TRAILER<33>

this is just a 15 second trailer clip but i'll put on the full clip after the 2009 MTV Movie Awards since they will show the full clip on the award show. i was so stoked when i saw this! agg enjoy and love :)

Biology and Pendidikan Islam(1) are such a pain in the ass

2009-05-26T20:13:00.000+08:00

"i will try my best and put some effort to achieve straight A's for this mid-year exam,i can do this, i'm going to study. NOW" - it did make sense but now i'd say bullshit. the italic sentences were actually the exact words that i said to myself BEFORE the exam started and look at me now. i mean don't look at me as ME cause i'm not in front of you, look at the title. the fcking consequences for not reading a single, tiny little bit of info from the book. that's a LIE. i did read but those weird names that i read doesn't stuck in my head for too long. 15 minutes of reading, 5 minutes before the paper started i lost them. EVERY-FCKING-SINGLE THING. that is why i thought the toughest were Biology and Pendidikan Islam(1). like i said, a pain in the ass=painful and hurting me to answer them. Literally.

Let's talk Biology(2&3).
fisrt question, easy. middle questions, fuck you. last question, okay. sum it all up=FUCKER
i left a lot of questions. like they asked me to draw an osmosis process shit? i mean psh to you it may be easy but hell to me it's hard. shut up! i did not read or touch on that topic okay Einstein! meiosis, prophase, anaphase... seriously i just remember Twilight and Twilight doesn't show how to draw the thing so i left that blood-sucking questions too. and then come the 20 marks essay question. i chose number 2 or 3 and there were like 3 parts and i did answer two of them the marks are like 10 to 15 but i just did like 3 sentences. CRAP! by that time while i was doing the paper, i thought, "oh how i wish Edward would come and help me with this Bio paper since he is indeed very good in this subject. come Edward come!" Stupid i know but whatevs i was so bored. i get a chance to sleep and drawing stupid stuff for a good 1 hour and 30 minutes. i think i'll fail on this subject. can i drop?

Moving on with Pendidikan Islam(1).i didn't remember a single thing that i learnt. its like half of my brain are not fuctioning and UGG it's irritating!there's a few questions that we haven't learn any yet so might be bonus i think but still doesn't help either so what is it to bother? gah i don't even want to talk about this. i'm in my vacation mood so i don't want to mess with my mood. i set them already.

did i just vacation mood? oh yeahh i know it's just Tuesday and Wednesday i'll be gone from school and exam! isn't that cool? psh yeah so cool until i get the last number on the exam list for not attending three papers. but who cares? my brother do but i get a chance to skip Physics paper! yay for me! i'm attending my sister's convo this Thursday and i'm looking forward to stay with her in Shah Alam. so i'm on an early leave from school. i think i will not always updating everyday but i'll try. i hope someones reading my blog cause i did not want to waste my time rambling around and apologizing for not updating cause then i'll look and sounds stupid cause i thought there are someones reading my stuff while there are not actually. so in conclusion, type anything or just say hi to me on the tagboard so that i know you people are out there :) i'm better off right now. so yeah have fun and be safe <33

p.s: i'm currently reading a book called 'How Starbucks Saved My Life' by Michael Gill. a good and inspiring book based on a true story. i'll update about this book later. thanks to my sister cause she bought it for me for my birthday :)

AWESOME

2009-05-24T20:11:00.000+08:00

"finally she's updating", "lamest blogger EVER", "i thought she deleted her account"- probably these maybe are the words that came through your mind right at this moment while you're reading my blog update. YES i know what you're thinking. AND OH YEAH i'm back on typing stupid stuff so bring it on and suck it all up bitches. jkg. oh confessions,

ALMOST THREE THINGS THAT I SUCK THE MOST:

i really am suck at reading and memorizing stuff. like math formulae and bio's creepy cell names.
i suck at exam papers.
i suck at updating my precios blog. shut up!

but here's the good side fellas I AM BACK. i'll try to update you about my oh-so-boring life and some other things that i need to share with you. can you deal with all these stories that i'm about to tell you later? cause if you don't, then just go away kay?

DAMN i have my bio tomorrow so i think i'm going to go and read on a few things. if only it will stuck in my head. oh i cannot wait for school holidays so that i can make myself free from all of this school's shit and DUH-RAMA! and more updates on school hols :)

tons of love and say "WELCOME BACK HOMMIE!"

p.s: before that, i just want to show off these photos. i think these are ADORABLE. i think i'm kind of in love with Taylor Lautner but not Jacob Black.

I AM OFFICIALLY SIXTEEN

2009-05-04T21:48:00.001+08:00

"Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to Sarah, Happy Birthaday to You"

say woot woot! OH YEAH *Hannah Montana style* May 8th has finally come! wow wow i am sixteen. that's huge man! i know you'll probably be like "pfft it's just 16" well for you is a 'PFFT' but for me it's a huge deal because one i think i've grown up, two theres like 1 and a half years to go until i finish school and three people can treat me like i should be treated. so suck it up and try to be happy for me on my birthday.

"Gonna spread my wings, Sweet Sixteen,
It's my chance to shine, Sweet Sixteen,
Discovering, Sweet Sixteen,
So much more to life, Sweet Sixteen" - Hilary Duff

i think being 16 is not old but younger cause i feel young :) and being sixteen is like a roller coaster. i mean of course it's just like emm 30 to 40 minutes since i'm officially 16 but i know it's like that because i watched my sister and my brothers going through their years of being 16 and 17 and i know they've been through a lot by that time eventhough they didn't tell me and i know i'm going to face a whole lot new different kind of things and i'm ready so bring it on give me some headaches. haha i think being one year older will make me realise what kind of person that i want to be and i think it'll makes me more mature and it'll helps to build up my self-confidence. i hope with this age i will be good inside and out. psh sure i'll be stubborn sure i'll be playing around a lot but that's normal. that's what the people in my age should do. so yeah i'm gonna keep it balance.

my wish list. i'd be happy if i live in a healthy life with my family. i even be more happier if god gave some good grades. i just wish that i can be more serious in my studies and do very well in exams. i know it's too early to talk and think about SPM and what university that i want to go to but i know that i want to do really well in my SPM so bad because i want to make myself proud and my parents to be proud of their daughter. i want to see their happy faces and i want to show off to people that i can do this and they have to take me seriously. another wish is i need more time and less school shits. last but not least, a great time with my dearest friends.

i think that's all for now. thank you to those who wishes me Happy Birthday. i appriciate all the wishes a lot. thanks for spending your quality time by reading up my update :) i hope that my Sweet Sixteen would be fun and memorable and i hope for a better and more happier life in the future. May god bless me and you <33

p.s: my brother's birthday was on May 7th, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO <333
p.p.s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANAAAA! aku rindu nak celebrate birthday dgn kaw :)

"If you're a bird, I'm a bird"

2009-05-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

"I am no one special. Just a common man with common thoughts. I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but in one respect I've succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul and for me that has always been enough."- the opening when the Duke did the voice over. this is beautiful.

i wanted to watch this movie again :( i did my english oral about this movie and it makes me want to watch this beautiful love story again. Noah and Allie are just

, WOW great. to those who haven't watch this movie yet, find the dvd or download this movie cause i swear once you watch this you'll cry. this is a romance movie but pfft guys don't be too macho, you'll be amaze when you watch this, cause honestly guys might enjoy.

okay i gotta go to bed, goodbye and <33

Cannot think of a title

2009-05-04T20:40:00.000+08:00

hey hello :) wow it has been a REALLY long time since i update my now-so-call-shitless blog. psh i have a life that i have to live eventhough it's pointless but i have to live my life by doing tons of crap and bull so that is why i couldn't afford to sit for hours on my chair and typing stupid words for you to read so that you can waste your time because i know you have a life to live like me. wow imagine i said those sentence in a one shot of breath. i must be some kind of alien. okay so i know i wrote some stuff that you might think stupid and out of place so don't bother cause i'm not in my stable condition. well the most important part is I FUCKING MISS MY BLOG! i always think of something at school about what i'm going to write on my blog but i never have enough time for this and sometimes i have this so call 'writer's block'. haha eww

so since this is my first update after god knows how long, let's talk about life shall we?

Three pathetic words to describe my life, YAWN YAWN YAWN
BORING, seriously. i pretty much doesn't have any problems except for a few subjects at school but from family to relationship issues, i am certainly living in peace. psh sounds great? well it does not. let's see why :)

i live with my incredible parents. yes, in case you're wondering where are my other siblings? they practically living on their own. my sister, she's in Shah Alam cause she went there for study and my brother is currently in Segamat finishing his exams and my other brother is far away in Kuantan right now probably planning on a new assignment. so YES i am living with my parents, just the THREE of us in a house. if you're good with imagination, you can imagine my life. back from school we had dinner and we did our praying and then my dad went to surau, my mom mengaji and there would be me. Alone :( i mean i don't blame anyone not even my parents but gah common i need some fun at home. haha that's why my life is nothing but boring. plain and dead boring. but i'm cool with it cause sometimes my mom and dad are just so funny. they're cute together. LMAO

now about school. yes of course it's fun. sure i had a great time. but fuck i hate the period! and and the homework are just too much. i'm like "what the hell?! could you just stop giving us shit?!" i want to do well in school. more than well i want to be excellent in school so bad but honestly i have no time to start studying if the homework are just like flowing non-stop. and yes i did the work but i couldn't finish that damn work on the fucking time! gah i don't want to talk about school it's just make me want to throw up and let out all the cursing words that i know. so enough is just enough. oh before that, the suckest thing is the mid-year exam is next week on the thirteenth. yeah, fuck.

relax cool calm

on the positive side is I'M TURNING 16 THIS FRIDAY! omgoshh can't believe it. eekk i don't ask for too much just a wish from you guys are more than enough for me :) *making angel faces*

aww i should go right now :( but i'll update soon. i'm going to try. thanks for reading and um yeah thanks!

26 countries and with 1 hope

2009-04-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

yes the lamest blog update title. i have to say, i really don't know what to post this time. so i think maybe listing down all (just some kott) the countries would be fun. that's why the title '26 countries and with 1 hope'. i'm hoping i'll go to these countries. oh and beeteedubss, they are just some random countries and random listing except the first three.

here are the list of the countries that i want to visit and explore. and i'd be happy if i get the chance. here it goes:

United Kingdom
Australia
United States of America
New Zealand
Japan
Korea
Indonesia
South Africa
Spain
France
China
India
Mauratius
Italy
Fiji
Dubai
Saudi Arabia
Turky
Thailand
Canada
German
Switzerland
Ireland
Russia
Oman
Venice

it will be soo cool if i can go to these beautiful places/countries. so maybe there's more countries that i want to visit but i couldn't remember but if i do, i'll post some more or i just edit this post.

until here lahh then, my eyes are half open when i'm typing this. GRR i want to skip school! okay sayang sayang goodbye :)

p.s: chemistry sucks! i think i'm going to fail about 3 or 4 papers or maybe more. ugg sheetttt!

I Swear I Hate Physics

2009-04-13T22:37:00.002+08:00

oh yeah it's official Physics suck. A LOT. i'm not sure if there's anybody who lives on this planet that love Physics. if there's such people exists, come and see me so i can kick your little butt! and to the person who made Physics exist in this world, may you rest in peace but damn you fucker!

OH. MY. GOD. i'm so going to fail my Physics through out the year. you know why? you know why? lemme tell you why. i cannot even make any differences between derived quantities and vector quantities. to the nerds, sorry if both of them are the same. like i said, i'm a failure when it comes to Physics. psh at least i know there are such things called derived and vector! seriously, i just feel like i wanted to give up with this piece of shit and i am willing to learn arts or PE everyday. GAH don't make me start about add math. whole different story. anyone please tell me who the hell that discoverd mathematics and even worse additional mathematics?! i swear when i looked at the paper i'm like what the hell?! and i just wanted to tear and rip them off to pieces.

hfghsjaljjhgfaajkjghafdkhgorejfhsagfnec (this only happens when i'm so frustrated)

holy shitttttttttttttttttttt! there's english, biology, agama and sejarah for tomorrow. fuck my life.

Director's Notebook

2009-04-12T10:24:00.000+08:00

woot woot! update lahh sehh. haha hello beautiful people :) yes i'm updating! agjgsdshhgfhsgf FINALY i know.

yesterday was April 11 right? so my sister and i planned to watch Shopaholic. i booked the ticket the night before but we're running late, we didn't even get ready at 3 since the movie should be 3.30. so i said it's okay we'll go for the 5.30ish and we arrived CS around 4.40 and wtf the movie starts about 7.15. and in no way we can watch that movie at that time. so i said let's watch 'He's just not that into you' and my sister was like 'no i want Shopaholic' okay lahh whatever then before we went to Leisure Mall to find the DVD we went to MPH and i literally wanted to scream cause i was so shocked theres no Twilight section anymore. i went to the back of the store to search for twilights and BAMMM the Twilightsaga books all over the shelf. and i stopped in the middle of the store like an idiot myself 'awwing' like i was watching some kind of light or halo. lmao and i'm so effing jealous to those who bought the full book set of twilight saga which costs RM 349. GRR whatever i have all those 4 books. oh oh i bought a book yesterday :) and of course it's about twilight. what i'm boring? shut up!

i bought TWILIGHT DIRECTOR'S NOTEBOOK! psh yeah be jealous :)

well actually i was thinking to buy this later but then my sister convinced me to buy this since there's only two left. it's pretty fun book i guess. lots of photos. a creative book written by the director herself, Catherine Hardwicke.

we left CS and went to Leisure Mall to search for the Shopaholic DVD but we wasted our time and RM1 for the parking cause no shopaholic. my stubborn sister brought me all the way to HP to search for the DVD but yet no show there and the last place we went to Danga Bay. still no Shopaholic. so to round it all up, 4 places but no Shopaholic. DANG

hmm what else eh? till here lah then. i don't know what to write anymore. so goodbye pretty pretty people :)

p.s: i need a serious revision for my upcoming test! sheeeeeeeeeeet

I'm Not Loyal

2009-04-09T18:51:00.000+08:00

ohh yeah what you saw on my title is true, i am not loyal. but only to this blog okay.

i still don't know what to write now. seriously like i'm stuck. GAH i hate it when i'm having mind-blocking kind of thing. cehhh i seriously need to update my blog soon, too soon but not now.

RESTART YOUR BRAIN AND MAKE IT FUNCTIONAL AGAIN SARAHHHHH!

see you later yawwww!

cool stuff

2009-04-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

hey woot woot second update of the night? oh yeahh dude! but not very interesting though i'm telling you (interesting enough for me though). i found some new cool stuff on the net so i'm sharing with you :) i know i'm that cool. pshh blahh

i'm not trying to promote anything at this moment since the concert is not here in Malaysia but i just wanted to show the picture or they call it poster. it looks good to me you know. it's creepy but in a cool way. and boy the band doing this concert kind of thing came from various of cool and really good bands. why oh why there is no such concert in Malaysia?

A CLOTHING LINE . GLAMOURKILLS.COM

Can you see those pictures above? psh of course you can. ish idiot question. don't they look so cool that you just wanted to buy and wear them? yep i feel the same way when i open up the site glamourkills.com. god the designs are like so cool and i thought let's get them and then i remembered, dammit i've to buy them online cause it's not from Malaysia's clothing line. GRR so backward lahh company Malaysia nihh. anyways check their site and you'll be like 'oh my..' on and they sponsored an dressed up Hey Monday. cool cool cool

well i think that's it for my cool stuff :) i have a lot more but i'm running out of time. do come back for updates.

ohh new picture!

how cute is he :) lmao

gah seha called me this evening. i screamed! haha i missed her so much <333

i suck at updating

2009-04-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

hello hello :) yes i'm officially suck at updating my blog so in that case i'm postinf a survey. duhh lame i know. but i'll try to put in something later.

Are you single?
oh yeahh single lady

What school does the last person you kissed attend?
never kissed and tell

Are you really happy or are you just saying that?
in between i think

How do you feel about girls/guys smoking?
hete it but my dad's smoking and it's pretty tough to stop him from smoking so i guess whatever you choose to shorten your life time

Were you happy when you woke up today?
today's friday and school so just normal

Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
ohh yeahh

Do you love the last person you called?
sure i love eiqa :)

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
seha kot <33

What's on your schedule for tomorrow?
maulud! oh yeahh

Is anyone mad at you right now?
why on earth?

Did you see the movie Twilight?
psh like thousand and one times!

What does the last text message in your inbox says?
my cousin askinf me if i had any class tomorrow

Do you like to cuddle?
oh cme and cuddle with me ;)

Who do you miss right now?
my friends in boarding school

Are you keeping a secret right now?
sure i am

Whats stopping you being with the person you like?
i don't like anyone currently

Last number you missed a call from?
my brother :(

Could you last in a relationship for 6 months?.
insay-Allah

Day been rough?
hmm just fine

Do you dye your hair?.
i won't

Would you get any plastic surgery?
ishh natural beauty lahh sayang

Do you have something that belongs to your bf/gf?.
not for now cause i don't have one

When you say you dont care do you mean it?.
not really

Can you read people's expressions?
i can read people's expressions a little but not their minds

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?.
i don't know man

Are you warm or cold?
warm warm warm

What was the first thing you thought this morning?.
ugg comprehension!

What are you doing after this?
log in to facebook and concentrate on myspace

Are you going out to the movies soon?
i don't know if soon but i really need to watch a movie!

Do you answer your phone?
not from strangers

Who took your display picture?
blahh myself

Let's Twitt?

2009-04-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

i've come to the realisation that i have not been loyal to this blog cause i haven't blogged in a while, so i will now :) but warning: SHORT 'the lamest' UPDATE ever.

i have a TWITTER account!

haha yep i'm an official Twitt. you know i've been reading gossip sites and these people were talking about twitter and how cool is this new thing and they assumed Twitter will be the next Myspace or Facebook. so yeah i signed up cause i'm like what so good about this birdie kind of thing and when i did, it's pretty cool. it's simple and it's more like chat room sort of. GRR i suck at explaning stuff. you guys should go there and sing up and be my follower and we'll chat and i'll update. there's no such things like 'about me' section or 'who i'd like to meet' section. you just write anything that you want with limited words lahh and post and the whole world can read your updates. it's like the myspace extended network kind of thing lah. ugg again i totally suck at explaining things in detail. so check out Twitter.com for better explanation and sign up! and by the way, search for me at twitter, sarahzephyr

lovelovelove
"the-crazy-over-twitter-dude"
little miss chatterbox :)

OMG first poster!

2009-03-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

hello and... whatever. OH MY GOSH i just got two of the first New Moon poster and thanks to oceanup my one and only sources. when i look at these photos i'm like 'damn common let's roll to November!'

GAH i so cannot wait till November. fuhh cool relax babe. okay so i should call it a night. gotta go. Biology's waiting. GRR

Love you tonns!

p.s: i'm having a fever and a freaking flu. it's not fun.

Supporting EARTH HOUR. Do you?

2009-03-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

hello beautiful people :) yeahh if you cannot see the huge poster above you are dead blind you know that? blah blah i know it's March 29th but who's counting? i just came back from kampung and theres no wireless there so that's why i'm talking about EARTH HOUR on 29th instead of the 28th.

hm did you guys participate and switch off your lights last night at 8.30 sharp? you better be or else you're a monster. common it's just for one hour to protect the earth from global warming. who me? oh YES i did swicthed off the light. pfft what a stupid question to ask? my whole family back at kampung supporting the earth hour you knoww! kampung people also understand what is earth hour and what is global warming. so shame on you if you're not supporting this campaign. haha but we did not swicthed off the light for one hour instead we switched it off till 11 something. how supporting are we?

GRR i think that's for tonight. just wanted to say congrats and thank yous to those of you who'd swithced off the lights and protect our blue planet from global warming. that's for now, enjoy your days and nights :)

lovelovelove, sarah. feels like want to switch off the light every 8.30 pm.

New Talent in the house babyy or not

2009-03-27T15:42:00.000+08:00

i'm such a good girl today :) haha i'm in my perfect mood right now so second update for the day.

see that title and the picture above? mhmm yeah i found a new talent ;) her name is Kina Grannis. she is an American guitarist and singer-songwriter. She is of Japanese, English, French, Welsh, and Irish descent.

i think you guys should check her out because wow lemme tell you she is one of a kind. her voice is beautiful and she's pretty. she's so talented that i'm a bit jealous of her. she sang perfect song. she writes bautiful music. she did a great job on some covers. basically she's a whole package. go google her and download her songs. you know i have a good taste on music kan so check her out on youtube and myspace and her official website, kinagrannis.com. you'll not be dissapointed once you heard her.

here are the two songs that i think, wow this girl can really sing. and she did a great job doing rihanna's Disturbia. but anyways you still gotta watch/listen to her videos on youtube. put her song on your myspace or blog or something.

she wrote her own song. TALENTED i know.

this one's my favourite.

watch more on youtube. wow how often did i write youtube on this? i'm pathethic. GAH but yeah i think she's going to be big in a few years cause she's great. Goodbye Taylor Swift and Hello Kina Grannis! i still love Taylor though.

New Mood

2009-03-27T14:10:00.000+08:00

what's up people?! wow it seems like forever since i updated my blog. i'm such a lame blogger. i shouldn't have a blog but i want to have one :) pfft i know i promised that i'll update everyday but my schedule doesn't seem to keep up with my promise so blame the school stuff and tuition thingy. i've been very busy lately and i don't know why. i know i still have the night to update but i intend to get ass tired so i gotta lay on my bed and just sleep the nights off. but anyways here's the update of the week. thanks a bunch to those of you who took sometime and check out my blog. thanks for reading my crappy,nonsense words. thanks to those who wrote something on my tag board. thank you thank you thank you!

well i don't know where to start but i think i have to tell you that my days were lame and brutal. it's tiring and i'm so looking forward for the next school holidays. i'm through with school i've had enough but i still have like a year and like eight months to go. and dang it such a long way to go. i'm kind of boycotting school works nowdays. ishh stressing lahh. bla bla bla what the hell i'm going to write on here. okay i'm going to tell you about my dentist appointment on March 26th.

i skipped school on 26th. chemistry.yep.module.NO. that's why skipped school eh. the appointment was at 8 in the morning. i came early like 7.50 but damn loads of people there but luckily i came late but i get in early ;) so around 8.30 i was in the room and out of the room was like 9.15 or so. idk what was the doctor's name but she seems nice. haha and the best part was the doctor and her few workers were gossiping around while there is a patient laying there with mouth wide open. blahh that's me ngeng!

the pretty sucks part was when they're trying to pull off the braces and put a new one. ugh hate that part. doesn't feel comfartable at all. and it's hard for me to eat! but it's okay beauty equals to pain. blahh right now my colour is silver since there's no band. ketat gilaaaa! i can't even chew any kind of food anymore. but it's just for a while. chillax..

hah my first photo after the appointment. i get so irritated.

a closer look. hideous i know. i'm not that happy when i took this one just wanted to show the braces ;)

actually after the appointment i should go back to school but my mom was being a cool mom and sent me home :)

psh what else to write. hm i'm not sure but yeah i know it's lame to update about my teeth when i've been away from the computer for so long but maybe there more after this. who knows. but thanks for reading!

Oh hell i'm going to miss you sayang :)

2009-03-20T11:42:00.000+08:00

hey how's it going? true story i'm crying while i'm writing this. i don't know how to start this. hahh deep breath..

okay so i have a friend named Nor Seha binti A. Shukor and she's sixteen right now. she's pretty cute she's smart and that's why she's going to move out to Sekolah Berasrama Penuh Integrasi Mersing. psh yeah how nerd is that school sound? oh by the way, she shared the same interset as i do, she LOVEs TWILIGHT and we both share our love interest towards Edward Cullen. and today's update is for her. Seha, this one's for you babe. wow i'm updating my blog JUST for you. how special is that?

Seha honestly i'm going to miss you so much and i know you'll miss me too :) i'm not going to see your face on the very first day of school. how pathetic is that? i don't get a chance to say goodbye to you bacause i'm not there when you guys are having fun at the picnic :( well blame my dad, he went to repair his car. GRR and i'm jealous to those who went there. but it's okay i still have the memory on March 13th. hey who's going to share all the juicy story about Edward at recess with me? who's going to high five me and agree with me evrytime i told her about Edward? who's going to be jealous with me when i talked about Edward? who else will yell at us because we keep on talking about Twilight? who will be that person to me anymore? it's not gonna be Tiqa i think since she went to recess with the TMers.

Seha, i've planned already what we're going to do when we're at Negeri Sembilan. but you'll not be there. Seha, New Moon movie will be premier on November and you promised that you'll watch with me. are you coming back on the day it's premier? now look what you've done. you broke the promise cause you'll not be coming back right? cause you're in the middle of the school studying. ha be jealous sayang :) but i still hope you'll be back :)

oh i wish i'm not crying over you but here i am trying to dry up my eyes but it can't stop. that shows how much i love you. i wish we can spend more time together with the rest. you know what you have to promise that you will not forget about me and the others okay? or else i'll send you to The Volturi. lol

babe, take care of yourself there. be nice to people and try to make some friends. oh and don't be too shy. haha
i'm hoping for the best of fun and tons of success while you're there. take care of Edward's and Twilight's stuff. if there is anyone at your school that loves Twilight as much as you and i do, please don't forget about me. don't forget to tell us when you're coming back and update your blog and tell us how are you doing there.

eh you are at my top 3 which means a lot :) you are the kind of friend that i can hope on and the shoulder to cry on. i love you from the bottom of my heart. eventhough we're not going to be as close as before (which i hope not gonna happen) i just want you to know that i love you and i'll always remember you. Be Safe.

hugs and kisses, Mamai<333

678 triple 98212

2009-03-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

my update for the day, there's nothing related to my title. i'm listening to Kiss Me Thru The Phone by Souljaboy while i'm writing this shit. this will not be the longest update that you'll be reading. i'm kind of pissed off actually right now.

first, i can't load a single video and i don't know what the hell is wrong with this broadband. its fucking messed up my mood. secondly, i'm hot. not hot 'hot', i'm sweating. mhmm in my room and i don't even know why. i just feel like wanted to be naked or something. well NOT. fuhhh it's like i'm burnin' up my calories. haha and THE MOST IMPORTANT THING, i just fucking know that SEHA's leaving for SBP in Mersing. that is a very HUGE news for me and the rests. and she's not gonna be in school on the very first day! oh god why why? who's going to be excited to meet me on recess to talk about twilight stuff? i'm really going to miss my recess partner :) GAH if i can write every bad names on this i will but i won't. fuhh first Teha then Yana and now Seha. who else?

to Seha, i'll love you no matter what and sumpah aku akan rindu kau! have fun and take care :) Don't you forget about us or i'll kick your small ass i swear. lmao

i'm done for now. thank yous :)

I got my eyes on Big Bang

2009-03-14T19:43:00.001+08:00

yep my eyes, they're glued on BIG BANG. the most hot stuff in Korea right now and for forever i think. well Bing Bang is just a crush kind of thing. they're cute and talented and i love their music. they are effing cool!

i knew them since like 2006 from this MTV show and then my attention towards them started to fade slow because someone new came up but then i was having my lunch while watching a show on MTV called JK Hits (which combined Japanese and Korean songs into a half an hour music non-stop show) and the Big Bang song came up called Sunset Glow and Last Farewell. three words, Oh-My-God. they sound really good although i don't know what the heck they're singing but the song was damn good man! i only get a few words like 'saranghae' and their videos are like the bomb and i'm kind of embarresed that Malaysian artists can't afford to make such a video. what a big shame.

oh and beeteedubss, i really like the guy on the very left who's wearing the pink shirt. he's hot when he started to rap. haha and dayumm korean language sounds really cool when it comes to rapping and that guy did a very good job. can anyone of you tell me who is the guy's name? please pretty please? way to go korean pop-star!

I'm in love with a fictional character

2009-03-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

yes. this is precisely what i'm doing here. this is my update of the day. hello to my lovely readers :) i bet when you saw my title up there you were like 'omgee who the hell?' if you guess Edward Cullen, you know me too well.

so basically my life right is shitless downright boring. and i spent my time doing my homework and repeat back my twilightsaga all over again. shut up i know i'm such a nerd. and as i was reading i'm glad that i still have these feelings when i read the novel, still have goose-bumps when it comes to Edward's part being lovey-dovey to Bella. i still shiverd, my heart still feels like wanted to melt at any second. and i'm okay with it because i was actually scared that when i read those novels there wouldn't be any exitement in my reading but yet i still have those normal feeling. always have and always will. and for some reason i think i'm in love again with the perfect vampire character. i thought that i'll pass those love feeling after a month or two but i guess not. if you think that i am a major looser because i'm falling for the person who doesn't even exist, well whatever. at the very least my heart will not be shatterd and broken into pieces. and at least i will not be treated like a piece of shit by the guy who is actually exist in this real world. so back the hell off.

honestly i want Edward to exist. not that vampire. just a person that is exactly like him. i want someone to have his whole-package just like Edward. dead smart, protective, strong and love someone to death and be someone's other half. i'm really looking forward to meet this kind of guy and i know Edward is too perfect to exist in this world but i just hope that in the future i want my kind of guy to be just like Edward.

Tons of shit need to be done

2009-03-14T18:45:00.000+08:00

hello there :) you ready for the longest blog in history? well it probably won't be that long cause i know a lot of you don't really care about my shit loads of homework. long story short, schoolworks are so uncool.
lame, annoying and make me fell wanna stranggle someones. i actually think i'm going insane for this whole week. if it's possible. okay lemme list out all of my homework to do and then you tell me whether your homework is much more than mine.

Bahasa Melayu- Fokus SPM(citra) 3 texts, rumusan and pemaham teks from Hj Rosland's book. okay i've done my bm already so yay for me!
Bahasa Inggeris- none and thank goodness.
Mathematics- grr a lot. theres tons of exrcises from text book that need to be done in book 1, book2 and book 3. and for bonus, he gave us this module paper. fuck a damn pig! i like Eng sort of but when it comes to homework he's like out of this world.
Additional Mathematics- hahh this one is like 4 or 5 exercises from the text book and for extra piece oh shit he gave us a module and and there's still previous module that needs to be fully complete. DANG *that's okay i am an add math lover :) psh fuck
Biology- irritates me so much that i just feel like i wanted to drop this subject. but i know i coudn't. but OMG she gave us a lot of works. 3 fucking modules and each module is like 20 pages! for god sake we're not a danm machine. i do like my biology teacher but she is a one crazy young woman when she puts her hands on our homeworks. she gave no mercy to us! and don't let me start about the notes and practicle book. shoot i have a lot of writing to do. dammit
Chemistry- ARGH when i did my first module for chapter 1 it was okay then when it comes to module 2 chapter 2 and module3 chapter 3, my jaw just drop to the floor and never close back. there's like 4 sections that i have to write down on a test-pad and it's structured questions that bother me so much there's essay for crying out loud! ant the questions are so tough that can make your eyes pop out when you read 'em.
Physics- i'm in luck. no work for this subject but we still have to discuss about our physics project.
Pendidikan Islam- notes notes notes! a lot and in jawi writing. i suck at writing jawi. gee
Sejarah- wonderpet tak bagi homework! yay :D she didn't enter the class for two days so i guess she forgot that there's school holidays. good for us!

so to round it all up i'm in big stress. and the modules make my homework list longer than ever. didn't these teachers never thought that they made us spent out parents money just for their papers and didn't they never thought that they're destroying the planet? we need to conserve the plants not use them for the effing papers. okay now i'm starting to talk trashy scratch that about what i said, destroying the planet and papers. it's meaningless. i really suck at explaining stuff
tsk tsk tsk ishh it's like no school holidays to me. no fun but anyways i'll try to find a way to finish up my homework but yet try to find some times to hangout and chilling around. i'm in need of a break.

tahtah my friends. see you tomorrow. well, not literally. but virtually. you know what i mean.

Lack of Updates

2009-03-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

hey friends :)

yes yes i know there's no update frome since like forever. gosh if i can stop the the world i will and the first thing i'm going to do is update my blog. haha trash talking! but yeahh i'm not in the mood lately and i've been very busy so sorry peeps. excuse me for not spending every waking moment on the computer but tonight will be just a very short update but i promise there will be something on tomorrow ;)

so the first thing is i'm so pissed my ass off because i've waisted my time waiting for the videos of my kbs drama to load their shit but then theres no fucking subtitle. i mean what do you expect me as a malaysian can understand those koreans? i don't even know what i'm talking about honestly i know a few words but not everything. that's first.

then i was dead bored with facebook and myspace so i did download some new songs and i did download half of the twilight soundtrack. i have another um 3 more songs to go. exited!

Track listing of twilight soundtrack :
1. "Supermassive Black Hole" (Muse) – 3:29
2. "Decode" (Paramore) – 4:22
3. "Full Moon" (The Black Ghosts) – 3:50
4. "Leave Out All the Rest" (Linkin Park) – 3:20
5. "Spotlight" (Twilight Mix) (Mute Math) – 3:20
6. "Go All the Way (Into the Twilight)" (Daniel Newman and Perry Farrell) – 3:27
7. "Tremble for My Beloved" (Collective Soul) – 3:53
8. "I Caught Myself" (Paramore) – 3:55
9. "Eyes On Fire" (Blue Foundation) – 5:01
10. "Never Think" (Robert Pattinson) – 4:29
11. "Flightless Bird, American Mouth" (Iron & Wine) – 4:00
12. "Bella's Lullaby" (Carter Burwell) – 2:19

so i have another three to go which is track number 6, 7 and 9. i'm finishing it up tomorrow morning. to seha, don't worry i'll give you the songs kay? sabo duluu

the most important thing is i'm effing pissed off with school. tons shit of homeworks! DANG it's like we're not having any school holidays. psh so much for 'rest your mind and body'. crap crap and full of bull. seriously give us a break. we're not your personal machine toys! i'm tired with all this shit and somehow i just wish that i can quit. argh my personal place of hell honestly.

wow i just realized that i used such a hars words. i'm sorry but i'm juts mad right now ant i'm usually curse a lot when i'm i this condition. accept my apology if you think this update is your waste of time. i'mma bounce now.

lots of kisses and hugs from the girl who is about to throw a chair at the window out of frustration and anger. lmao

You've turned the temperature hotter.

2009-03-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

gahh long time no see mehhh :) i'm pretty much busy lately so that's why my blog is kind of lack of update. perdon.

well i'm right now is about 10.30 pm and it's Tuesday and i have homeworks but i'm getiing bored with that stuff so here i am blogging and watching the korean version of Hana Yori Dango :) it's called 'Boys Before Flowers' and don't ask me why on earth the title is so gay. you should watch because it's fun, cute, annoying, EVERYTHING. heee

it's not going be a longgg update for this one cause i'ne tons to do right now so i'm just going to put on some photos and write down some crap so just shut up and read please :) thanks a bunch!

Let me tell you, i'm in love with Lee Min Ho but of course he's after Edward Cullen.

take a very good look at him. dayumm he is a beauty :) he plays the roll of Gu JunPyo, the arrogant guy who accidently fell in love with a dry-cleaner's daughter named Gan Jandi. he is effing rich dude (in that drama lahh)

this is Gan JandiDi. i'm not sure what's her real name but she's kawaii. in the drama, she's tough ad innocence and straight and i love to watch the scenes when she's arguing with JunPyo and when they're lovey-dovey together.

take a look at those eyes. can't even resist. pretty boy named kim hyun jung. he plays JiHoo and he is gosh, freaking cool and the way he stand on those feet in BBF wow, hot. lmao and i really hope that i can have a guy bestfriend just like him that can always be there for me even if everythings are falling apart.

theres another two guys in this drama and the guy who caught my eyes named Kim Bum and i'm really running out of time. mom's calling me and i need to go to bed right now so i can't put on the pictures and the details. huh my new favourite drama and i loveee it! go move your butt and wath this stuff, i reccomanded.

just look at how cute they are :) oh and beeteedubss, if you think this update is lame or waste of time, sorry i just in need of update and yeahh i just finished up the episodes so thats why. oh oh JunPyo turned the temperature hotter babyy ;p

Happy Birthday Seha :)

2009-02-19T17:46:00.002+08:00

yes yes i know i said i'm not going too update but i can't help :)
it's just a quick and a very short update. just a little shout out to nor seha.

okay so tomorrow is February 26 which means.. Seha's 16th birthday! so babe, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! may Allah bless you and all the best in everything. i love you and you're the best.

ohh seha, finally you're in love with Edward Cullen. and yay welcome to the club dohh! haha gua tak sangka lu minat twilight babe. cair jugak hati kaw kat si Cullen yang perfect nak mampos tuhh.

okay once again, Happy Birthday and lovelovelove!
p.s: hope you'll be enjoying the present that we'll give you.

BLUE is not LOOSER

2009-02-19T17:46:00.001+08:00

hey :) yo yo yo (i'm not too cool to say that though) haha
how's it goin? i hope it's been better, well for me this week's pretty tough.

oh well my school held the annual 49th sports day on february 21st and it was really fun! although it's kind of lame bacause it started with tarian which is very rare and ohemmmgeee the song was stuck and i pity the dancers bacause they're like don't know what the hell to do cause i saw their faces were like 'hahh what now?' but they're very pro so they calmed theirselve and two thumbs up for them. oh and i can't help but laughed when this girl who i think is the head leader cursed(in silence) in front of the VIPs. lmao

beeteedubbs, i know it's february 24th and it's kind of late to update about the sports days but who cares. i just want to makse sure that i'll be updating because i'm not going to be on the computers untill thursday i think because of the exam crap. DANG

okay so let's start. i went to the stadium, straight to the grandstand, bla bla bla. well i'm not participating in any kind of thing on that day hah you know me.. or maybe you don't but whatever. so since i don't want to stay at the granstand, caca, khai and i pretended that we're the school photographers so we get a chance to be on the track and watched our friends struts their move! but i think i want to be part in something for next year because it's my last year of school (senior lahh gonjeng!) and it'll be the 50th anni of sports day so for sure gempak! heee

as a 'photog' i can go wherever i want freely and at some point puan azalina yelled at me "girl spe hal awak dekat sini? berlegar-legar tak tentu pasal?" my inner part was like "ehh kau tak pasal-pasal nak sound aku ape hal pulak?" but i did my 'blur-confused-innocent' face and was like 'hahh? saye photographer cikgu" and there i shut he mouth up and i can totally see her face got bengang mann. that's my favourite part. haha

it was marching time and fuhh i would say best lahh weyhh. the conducter, the house's marching, ups's marching and the cheer formation was awesome. credits to all of them. they put a lot of effort in their works and it turned out beautiful. i can't say that i'm satisfed with bomba who won the best ups's marchin because they got two people fainted and they won that bloody prize. i mean common krs should win that title cause they're better.

after marching we had the most importand perfomance. without them it'll be dull. SIGS BAND of course. they're simply the best i should say. they did kind of like orchestra's mucis which is cool. and i love when they did their moves the formation i think, wayy cool. oh oh i liked the very last part when they want to went out they did the 'S-I-G-S' shape and it turen out great. the best.

then it's time for larian and khai was on the track and wow taht girl can run fast dude. seriously she won the 1st runner up title. did she even practice? i think not. congrats bai!

oh please take a very goo look on your left picture. whoo the hell is that? if you guess farah, yep you're right! look at what she's wearing. a freaking short-sizes A skirt. hahah i can't stop laughing when i saw her. first time in a life time the we can actually saw her wears a skirt. she looked nice and tiqa looked so cute.

but the main thing, fara is one of the cheerleader of blue house and she's a flyer. when i was on the track, taking some photos, when she did her solo stuff, her face was dead hilarious. she was so scared but she's brve enough to be on her spot on that day.

blue house's cheer won the title for the best cheering! yay for them! they're incredible and their formation was the bomb and i like the what the call it, 'pendulum'? hahh lahh that one.

ohh the marching stuff finished already and we hanging aroud and Tunas Bestari's corner and it's damn hot man that day. wors can't describe. we cheered for our team and yelled and screamed at each other. ust chatting, took some photos and pretty much laid back and have some tan. IDIOTS!

caca caca caca! she's very busy with her Nikon D40 camera. haha but it's cool and i giggled a lot when seha was trying to use the camera. she was like "wahh hebatnya" ,"wahh cool dohh" ,"hah ni yang nak beli nihh". beli lahh sayang aku support kau 100%. so seha lepas nih bak kate nina 'sayanika'.

but i had fun watching her being jakun like that because that was totally her and babe, happy becoming 16th birthday! oh nanti Muhaimin bagi ape? haha

p.s: aku suke dohh tgk kau blushing seha when i mentiond his name. *wink wink* COUGH-sorry-COUGH

eh eh look at your left again! the blue house's mascot. cute right? or not. but i think it's cute. but i reallt don't know whether it's related to the 'perpaduan' theme but like i care. maybe the're some point behind it.

i really like every mascot from every house. i can't remember red and yellow's mascot but i love green's mascot. she wore this funny in a cute way kind of patung budak lelaki melayu and she did her move with the butts and the hand wave which i think she'll be embarrased when she did that thing but not with the patung cover.

every team did their best with the cosutunes and presentation and the decoration but again biru won again! conrats to those who incharged and doing whatever they did untill the house won the best decoration.

then here comes the best part the performances by martial arts kids and the cheerleaders.

we've been waiting for the ninjas and one word can describe, WOW. and i still don't understand why they still not satisfied with what they did. dude, common you guys are much better that the teakwandos with that weired hip-hop movements which i found stupid and dead funny and way better than silat with i don't know what on earth they did. so please stop saying you're unsatisfied because i as teh person who watched the performaced liked it.

ohh and cheer. wow major weired. they put on this gold masquratte mask and i don't know what's the point and purpose. so your boyfriend or your secret admirer won't recognise you? well it works but it's umm.. you know what right. but all and all they did great but they can do better.

i should say that sports day is deff one of the highlight of 2009 in my school calender. like what the VIP said, marvellous. (is it the right spelling?)

i'm sure i'm going to miss the moments when i can skip classes after recess to join my friends do their cheerleading or marching eventhough i didn't paiticipate in anything.

words to blue house, the best- always is and always will.

mission for next, please lahh maisarah do partcipate in anything next year. haha

untill then, lovelovelove

You disgusts me.

2009-02-19T17:46:00.000+08:00

hello beautiful. how's it going? i hope it's been wonderful :)

so i was thinking about this recently and i thought that my blog is not the only place for me to share and confess about the things that revolves around me. i just realized that i want my blog to be more than anything. i want to talk and share and give my point of view about everything from school to fashion to gossips to celebs life.

well for this post i want to share my personal view and my own judgement about an actress named Lindsay Lohan. And no, i'm not going to mention any good stuff about her. so to Lindsay's fan, sorry :) you know i don't hate her but i do not like her. i'm sure that each and everyone knows about this girl and please don't you ever say in front of my face that she's a good example. she is totally not. i mean common, seriously? i do admit she was a good actress but she's getting worst. she gets all her attention from the media and paparazzi and the people around the world not because of her skill in acting and her works but because of her social life. she went to wild parties, she do drugs, she's so thin because of her eating disorder, she smokes a lot, she drinks way too much and she likes to show off her skin way too much too. she even went to jail for crying out loud! plus, she went to rehab for god knows how many times. do you honestly thinks that she is a good role model for us? my answer is, Hell NO mann.

let's do some comparison on her body issues..

she was plumped but she looked good.

look at her now. she's freaking thin like a skeleton. i mean i do want to be thin but a healthy-thin not weird-ugly-unhealthy thin like her. so she is deff not my example of people that i can look up to.

okay now to her relationship issues. first and for most, no offense to those who supports same gender relationship. i do respect your choice but i just want to confess my true feeling about her.

Lindsay is smokin' but why on earth did she choose Samantha Roson over thousands of hot guys that she can pick out.

honey, you can choose any guy in this entire world that you want to be with or to be in your bed but why her? you can have Calvin Klien's model or Michael Phelps if you want or maybe you can have Chace Crawford in your pants. seriously Miss Lohan?
moving on to her crazy-party life. here's the proof

she drunk her ass off. look at this picture? i'm sure you did not want to turn out to be like this because i don't.

i couldn't care less if you want to look up to her and be like her but if you think back i know that deep inside this is not the life that i want to be in and i'm sure it's not yours. this is like a reminder to me about how i want to be later in my future and i don't want to be like her.

p.s: sorry if the pictures and the words may be offended to anyone of you. just for fun.

MANGO barcelona

2009-02-19T17:09:00.000+08:00

hola mi amigos! NEWSFLASH

i bought a bag! yay for me ;) it's not a handbag but kind of cause it's a sling bag. "love at the first sight" lmao
it's not 100% leather bag. the outer part of the bag is leather but the inside of the bag is not. i totally love my new bag.

i have two choices:

a converse sneakers

roxy handbag or

mng bag but i think since i don't have a bag so yeah i bought the mng bag which costs me RM 119.

here's the result:

okay so this one is not very clear but whatever i love the bag.

p.s: i din not intend to show off but i just have no idea what to post on my blog for the update so yeah you got this one. sorry if it's lame. i'll try to find somethis to put on later! <33

"check out the check-it-out girls!"

2009-02-17T18:25:00.000+08:00

heyyyy everyone! how's life? hope its been better.

okay so i don't really know what to post for this one like i have no idea what to talk or tell you guys so this is random and pretty much lame to put in a blog post. but seems that i like demi lovato and i found this video and she's cute in this 'Sonny with a chance' and i like the last part of this video. i didn't know that she can be like that. you know like 'gedik'? cause she seems hardcore when it comes to singing. plus this video goes to sarah faiqah!